Sunday, May 31, 2009

First Person America: In These Hard Times


First Person America: In These Hard Times

A national competition seeking the best videos, photographs, and stories describing how individuals, families and communities are managing during these hard times.

One of the unexpected outcomes of the Great Depression was a decade of creative outpouring that covered the U.S. map. Under the auspices of the Works Progress Administration (WPA), thousands of artists fanned across the country documenting the experiences of everyday Americans as they worked to maintain their families, their communities, and their way of life in the face of a national economic crisis.

Now, as Americans are again experiencing financial hardship and uncertainty, First Person Arts invites artists to document how this generation of Americans is coping.

Inspired by the artists of the WPA, who documented the experiences of Americans in every part of the country, First Person Arts is asking artists to help craft the first draft of the history of our era by capturing, in photographs, on video, or in writing, the stories of America and its people during these difficult times.

Our goal is to gather stories from all 50 states.

Artists:

We are looking for short memoirs and essays, documentary films, and photographs that depict Americans from all walks of life. We are especially interested in stories that are unique to your family, your community, your town, your region – that capture the idiosyncratic things that are happening where you live - the slices of life that, taken together, will give us a First Person picture of America in 2009 – the good, the bad, the ugly and the beautiful.

Guidelines:

Writing submissions – up to 2,500 words.

Film and video submissions – up to five minutes, excluding credits.

Photography submissions - may include up to five photographs, with or without accompanying text of up to 100 words per image.

Submission deadline: June 30, 2009

Finalists in each category (writing, film, and photography) will be featured on the First Person Arts website (www.firstpersonarts.org) and at the First Person Festival of Memoir and Documentary Art, November 4-8, 2009. First place winners in each genre will be invited to Philadelphia to participate in the festival. A cash prize will be awarded to the best story overall.

Competition website: www.hardtimes.firstpersonarts.org


(I have additional information if you need it, but I believe it's all on the website.)

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Sometimes It's Best Not to Go Home Again.


I had not been to my hometown in Mississippi in 15 or so years. I left it when I was 20 and never looked back. I was out of there so quick when I got the opportunity that those local policeman with the beat up cruisers (from running into deer, cows and each other mainly) didn't have a chance of catching me.

I got me a ticket to Calif-or-nee and jumped ship.

But of course time passes and thoughts of home grow fonder with each day. After a few years you wonder why you thought it was so horrid and why you ran faster than a wild rabbit with Old Man Purvis' coon dog on your tail to get out of town.

You start to remember school and how in a nice small town you knew everyone. You remember the bonfires, the school dances at the armory, the weeks when the deathtrap fair filled with toothless carnies came to town. The parades thru town on holidays where if you had a horse or tractor to ride, or heck, even a tame cow, you could be in the show!

It was a town that felt like a big heaping plate of comfort food.

So I moved down South again about 10 years ago and when just back I got invited to a shindig in Mississippi. I jumped at the chance to go even though I wasn't very close to that particular side of the family.

On the way to the party, I told hubby that a turn off of only 30 miles or so would bring us to my old town.

Hubby, who found small Southern towns fascinating, and wanted to see where his redneck woman came from and what made her eat grits (which he is loath to touch) so readily, agreed immediately.

I was so excited... I envisioned running into old school chums and showing off my sophisticated, worldly, California ways. I was gonna show them that Idgie did good when they gave her looks of ridicule for saying she was moving off to Calif-or-nee all those years ago. I was gonna show my hubby what a quaint old Southern town I lived in, just like in "To Kill a Mockingbird", without murder and rape of course.

Well.

We pull in to town and the first thing I notice was that it wasn't quaint. It was run down. They managed to add a few ticky-tacky block-shaped buildings to the town, taking away any further old-timey charm. Those adorable older homes with the big oak and willow trees on main street..... Well a few now had those trees as roofs on abandoned homes.

My friends? Who knows. I didn't recognize a soul. And they all looked at me with deep suspicion as a stranger. Instead of me showing off my sophistication, I probably looked like a snotty city girl that they imagined was sneering at their country ways.

I give hubby directions to the old homestead. I was excited as I thought it was always a nice house, nothing but good memories. Well, two things had happened. One was that at one time an auto shop of some sort was added onto the actual house (My Mama's turning in the grave as we speak) and two.... it had burned down. My beautiful old home that I couldn't wait to run away from was gone forever.

Worse even was that my Daddy had a bad habit of "improving" things. He would improve them with the town drunks helping. I would find them (not Daddy... okay, sometimes Daddy too!) asleep in the back of my car (no doors were ever locked in this town) after burying my dog. I would find them at the kitchen table asking me to fetch them a pickle. Worst of all, I would find them adding a room to a room and saying that before the drink took them they had a fine electrical business.

Yes, you guessed it right.. the fire in that beautiful old house that I couldn't wait to get away from started at the fuse box from the looks of it. My daddy and the town drunk were adding a room and wiring when I moved away. I'm sure they had something to do with this.

So I go to the cafe and ask what happened to Doc's old place. They didn't recognize our names!!!!!!!! Don't old little towns remember whose cat chased a blue tick hound up a tree in 1943? They remembered the people before us that built the house and the people after us... they didn't remember my family name at all.

I was pure smote down with that one. I had grand plans to breeze into town and get oohed and aaahed over.

I took hubby to the high school where they take all our photos and put each year up on the wall. It was locked, I couldn't show him it. We looked at the football field. We walked into the Feed and Food Mart. We drove by the historical sign and waited for a train to pass the grain mill. 45 minutes later the entire tour was done, even though Hubby told me we had all day.

We left that little town that I grew more fond of each day I wasn't in it after about an hour. I've never driven thru it again.

Sometimes..............it's best not to go home again.

Idgie

Friday, May 22, 2009

Air, air everywhere and not a breath to breathe


Air, air everywhere and not a breath to breathe
By Redoubt

Ah, springtime in the great Southland! The azaleas are blooming, the kudzu is climbing and the air is thick as grits with vegetable sex!

Ahem. Yes, well... you will please forgive my choice of words but, that’s exactly what it is. Veggie sex, or pollen, and if you’ve never taken a deep breath that included a heaping helping of nature’s own, you may certainly count yourself blessed!

Now please, don’t misunderstand me. Spring is indeed a wonderful time. We have a great little garden going that should produce plenty of tomatoes and green beans and squash and zucchinis and peppers and… and… you get the picture. No, my gripe is with everything that was already sticking out of the dirt from last year.

Grasses, pines, oaks, hickories and most especially, our beloved weeds all contribute with a degree of enthusiasm worthy of a rising pubescent junior-high-schooler reading his very first National Geographic!

It’s worse at night. You lay in bed, gasping for oxygen but your lungs are so coated in that green/yellow/brown sticky goo that you just don’t stand a chance. In the morning, you shower, comb your hair, knock back a cup of coffee and then break out the Craftsman pliers to pry the boulders from your nose.

Of course, we do have what is otherwise a very efficient central air conditioning unit, double-paned storm windows with rubber seals and one of those home air ionizers that are supposed to clean your breathing material. And you know what? It probably works just dandy at keeping out things like diesel exhaust, marauding mosquitoes, cosmic rays, radioactive fallout and toxic acidic waste. But the pollen?

You might as well plant yourself in a greenhouse.

Oh, and let me do be very clear on one thing; I am not allergic to these substances. Not a bit. I don’t get sweaty, itchy eyeballs or loose my ability to speak. Nope, I just can’t breath well enough to take my frustrations… and my hedge shears out on everything poking its happy-self from the soil.

In fact, there is only one place where a brief respite is to be found and that, believe it or not, is at the local Walmart store.

Yeah, I can see that look on your face and no; Wally ain’t paying me to say this.

It is, as a matter of fact, my theory that because the big box mart is generally packed with so many people well ahead of my arrival, the air has already been thoroughly sifted by a kajillion other noses. All that’s left is that refreshing smell of... um, day old soiled diapers, dirty sneakers and unwashed hair.

Ah, springtime in the great Southland! The kids are screaming, the store associates are ignoring, the security personnel are chasing... and I can breathe!

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Redoubt can be found HERE

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

A Lump in the Mashed Potatoes


A Lump in the Mashed Potatoes

By Cappy Hall Rearick


So I'm in the shower doing my 'when I think about it' breast exam and there it is: the lump I never thought would find its way into my upper body. Frigid blood drains from my brain and rushes down to my bunions. I stand there, water dripping off my belly, before I think to do the finger thing again and make sure I didn't screw up. After all, I could have grabbed some old fatty tissue languishing like Lana Turner on the Rivera of my boob.


So I soap up the second time more than I need to, and with two fingers working in tandem, slide and thump defiantly over the area in question. There it is. Just when I thought I might someday wear a bathing suit again.


I fly out of the shower like I'm the Concorde. Soapy water soaks into the new carpet while I grab the phone, dial my gynecologist and stutter out my need for an appointment. "Immediately, if not sooner," I say, and why.


Somehow I manage to get myself dressed, into the car and over the causeway to my favorite doctor (except when she puts my feet in the stirrups). She is a delightful woman, sunbeam bright and sweet as can be. She likes to tell me jokes so I'll be less uncomfortable while spread eagle in one of a lady's most vulnerable positions.


This day I am the one making with the funnies hoping she'll enjoy my jocularity. But while I'm telling her an off-color boob joke, her sincere gaze remains one of empathic concern. She gives me a slight smile. Normally, she laughs at my stories, showing off the fact that her teeth have NOT been bleached Moby Dick white.


Clearing her throat she says, "I think it's probably nothing, but let's get you to a surgeon for a second opinion. Jeanine will make an appointment for you."


Frigid Blood Rush Number Two captures what is left of my rational mind, so I leave the office craving some serious chocolate. Two super-size Crunchy Reese's Peanut Butter Bars should do it. Maybe even three, my obsessive brain shrieks.


Jeanine calls two days later to say I have an appointment with a surgeon whose name I have never even heard. Five fret-filled days away.


After thinking it through, I tell myself that Jeanine's call heralded good news. If my situation were about to demonstrate firsthand what the other side of the flowerbed feels like, they wouldn't make me wait five whole days.


Something else takes the edge off somewhat. My boob feels like a stubbed toe and Mr. Google says that pain is not usually a sign of a malignancy. I'm willing to go with that. Denial is my happy place.


But now the appointed day has arrived and I have done a good job of thinking about everything BUT my lumpy mashed potato. At this time I think I need to express the deep down, glacially cold fear that the "Big C" may have possibly taken up residence in one of my girls.


I don't understand how this could be happening. Nobody in my family has had breast cancer; I do the monthly exam thing occasionally. I grit my teeth and never scream when getting a mammogram, or what I consider to be modern medicine's answer to water boarding. I swallow daily vitamins and eat tons of cruciferous veggies. It makes no sense that cancer would be so audacious as to take up residence inside my boob when cauliflower and broccoli are my two best friends.


I am so pissed.


Yet I have a burning urgency to express my fright, my anger and my anxiety with someone who would be more willing to drown in a toilet bowl rather than offer me any form of a "there-there platitude." I need to share my anxiety with someone who makes me laugh off the more serious thought of "what if."


So I do the thing that usually works for me ... I write about it. I type furiously of feelings, fears, denial. Everything. It lets me think that this oversized tit zit could just be a wake-up call, and it also allows me to scoff at the notion that it might be worse.


I do it because if I cannot be absolutely honest with myself when I write, I might as well start looking inside a toilet bowl for my new best friend!


Post Script:

I wrote this piece for a humor writing class I was to teach: "How to Write Humor With a Straight Face." While the lump was very real and scary, it turned out to be the wakeup call I had hoped it would be. Something had to hit me in the head for me to realize the importance of those monthly breast exams. As for the class, it worked well to show the students how to inject lines of humor when writing something as serious as cancer.


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Cappy Hall Rearick
www.simplysoutherncappy.com
www.lowcountrysun.sc

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Review of Cappy's newest book - "Return to Rocky Bottom" will be up at the Dew on May 20th.


Friday, May 15, 2009

THE ABANDONED HOUSE


THE ABANDONED HOUSE

My shame here is in sagging floors,

The gaping stare of empty doorframes,

In weather dripping down rotted timbers,

And the tumble-down porch

Leaning away at a fierce angle

From what was my face.

My tears are in the rain that falls

Through missing shingles,

Pooling around places under windows

Where lacy curtains hung.

Oh, how many faces gazed out from me.

Where now is broken glass,

Where the wind cries and the moth tumbles,

And the dauber builds her nest!

Where have the people gone?

Where have they gone?

Once I rang with laughter,

Joyed in birth and childhood.

I knew grief and happiness within,

The voices of the living,

Pain of parting and the silence of the dead

Now I am habited by ghosts,

Taunted by a creaking staircase,

Undone by crumbling masonry--

I have grown up trees in front

To hide me from the highway.

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Jack Peachum

Mecklenburg County, Virginia

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Some Changes to the Dew Coming!


The Dew has seen a change recently in regards to incoming content and interest and because of this, we've decided to make a few changes.


We have decided we are going to focus on writers and books and the such for now.


We will continue to work with the publishing houses and authors for book reviews and our main page will continue to be submissions by writers - be it stories, poems, thoughts on life, or just amusing tales that they would care to pass along. We will continue to stay out of editorials.


As of this time we will no longer bring in pieces on places to visit in the South, festivals or restaurant reviews/recipes.


We will concentrate on The Written Word.


There will be some minor tweaks to the Dew's look, but nothing too drastic.


Keep reading and writing!


Monday, May 11, 2009

There's no test for Southern vocabulary



There's no test for Southern vocabulary

My daughter just brought home a rather long-winded explanation of what is expected of fourth-graders on the upcoming big, fancy state writing test. I've read it, like, eight times and I still don't understand it, which means that either (A) I have the brains of sweater fuzz or (B) This thing really makes no sense.

On account of me being a perfessional writer-type person, I was eager to learn about the writing test but got stopped by the heading "Classroom Assessment Analytic Rubric."

I have no idea what a rubric is. Maybe it has something to do with a Rubric's cube, but then, what would an obscure toy from the '80s have to do with writing?

It's all tres confusing.

The writing test is given to students in grades 4, 7 and 10, and parents are urged to work with teachers to make sure that students don't blow it by using sentence fragments, run-on sentences or other no-no's. Or is that no's-no?

This example of using a word the wrong way was included in the, er, rubric: "He wanted to sale the boat." Maybe that's wrong; maybe not. If this is a Southern student, he might not want to "sail" the boat, as snooty test-writers assume. He might want to fix up that rusty-butt john boat behind Paw-Paw's shed and "sell" the boat. In the South, we pronounce that "sale" so there should be some geographical leeway, so to speak.

It's also important to use pronouns correctly. The example of using a pronoun incorrectly was: "John and myself went to school." They didn't give the reason for why this was wrong, so I can only assume that if a fourth-grader ever said that sentence to another fourth-grader, he'd get the snot beat out of him for being uppity, the kind of kid who would brag about getting to sale his boat for big money.

Another frequent problem with student writing is "incorrect formulations" such as "hisself, theirselves and bestest." Well, that's just about the worstest idea I ever heard. I LOVE those words.

Again, I sniff a geographical bias here. What right-thinking Southerner has never uttered the word "hisself" as in "John caught hisself on the barbed wire trying to get away from that bull"? There is simply no suitable substitute.

Because it wasn't listed, I'm hoping that the test will allow the use of another favorite Southernism: "theyselves," which, of course, is the pluperfect plural subjunctive of the verb "they." An example of correct usage would be: "They saw theyselves on 'Cops' and weren't even embarrassed about it."

I'll help my daughter study for this test. Just remember: If she doesn't do well, it wa'nt my fault.

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By Celia Rivenbark for TheSunNews.com, Myrtle Beach, NC

Full, original article HERE.



Thursday, May 7, 2009

Blue Waltz - Part 2


BLUE WALTZ

Brenda Wilson Wooley

Continued from May 2, 2009

She was wearing a blue, dress with a circle skirt, and on her feet were black spike heels. He was dressed in a pair of black pleated trousers, topped with one of those pink nylon shirts all the boys were wearing. I had always hated pink nylon shirts; I thought they looked sissy. But I was quickly changing my mind.

“Effie,” she said in a husky voice, “Do you have any sling-backs?” She studied her long, red nails as Red Hawk ran his hand up and down her back, obviously enjoying its silky feel.

Effie gazed around the room, her chubby face thoughtful. “I believe we have a pair or two just above those flats over there, hon,” she said, pushing her way through the crowd.

Virginia Mae Stowers followed Effie across the room, spike heels tapping, silky dress swishing. Red Hawk leaned against a rack of loafers, his half-closed eyes never leaving her slim form. He lit a cigarette and inhaled, twin plumes of smoke rolling from his nose. Several young women gazed at him, but they needn't have bothered. Red Hawk only had eyes for Virginia Mae Stowers.

“Let's go, girls,” Maw Maw said, as Virginia Mae Stowers walked past us in a wave of perfume, the sling-backs hooked over one finger. Her nail polish was the brightest red I had ever seen.

Red Hawk removed two dollars from his wallet and paid for the shoes, and they left the store, arm-in-arm.

Later, we spent a long time at the Ben Franklin where Pitty Pat and I bought a set of false finger nails. Then I began looking at the nail polish. There was Fiery Red, Deep Red, Light Red, Red Red, and all kinds of others, but when I came to Fire Engine Red, I knew I had found the shade.

That night, we opened our false nails and began. The glue was sticky and messy, and we had a hard time keeping our little brothers and sisters out of it. Pitty Pat began sticking hers on haphazardly. She soon got tired of it all, ripped them off and went out to play baseball. I finally got mine stuck on, and after I polished them, they looked pretty good.

The following Saturday morning, Maw Maw called to tell us she was treating us to dinner in town. Dining out was rare, so Pitty Pat and I dressed carefully for the occasion. I brushed my hair a hundred strokes and put a bow in it. We both put on our Sunday dresses and patent leather shoes, which we shined with leftover breakfast biscuits.

The Dinner Bell was hazy with cigarette smoke and packed with customers, Hank Williams belting out Honky Tonk Blues from the jukebox. The blender whirred, cranking out one milkshake after another, and the aroma of sizzling hamburgers made my mouth water. We recognized just about everyone in the place, so Maw Maw was busy talking to first one and then the other as we seated ourselves on the red, plastic-covered chrome chairs.

“Hello, y'all.”

I looked up into the face of Virginia Mae Stowers.

Her hair was tucked into a net, and she was wearing a red-and-white checked uniform. Up close, her face didn't look as good as it did far away; her green eyes were hooded and kind of sad looking. There was a sprinkle of freckles across her nose, and one of her front teeth was chipped. But she was still pretty.

“Our special today is ham hocks and white beans, with cornbread on the side,” she said, pencil poised in the air.

After we ordered, I watched her walk to the next table. No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't walk like she did. One hip moved, swirled up and jiggled; and then the other side moved, swirled up and jiggled. I was not the only one looking. Every man in the restaurant stopped eating and watched her.

Maw Maw looked at Virginia Mae Stowers and rolled her eyes. “That country fried steak's gonna taste mighty good, girls.”

While her customers were busy eating, Virginia Mae Stowers settled herself on a stool at the counter. She crossed her long legs and lit a cigarette, talking to first one customer and then the other. And after we finished our meal, she strolled back to our table, “Would y'all like some pie? We have sweet potato, blackberry cobbler, chess, banana crème, cherry and fresh apple.”

Maw Maw ordered blackberry cobbler, and Pitty Pat and I ordered banana crème. .

“I bet y'all want that a la mode,” she said, winking at Maw Maw.

She came back in a cloud of that wonderful perfume when she served our pie and ice cream, and I vowed to make a trip to the dime store and find that fragrance, no matter how long it took or how much it cost.

As we were leaving, a black coupe pulled up in front of the Dinner Bell, Red Hawk at the wheel. He propped one elbow on the open window, revealing a tattoo of a coiled snake on his forearm, and pulled a pack of Camels from his rolled-up tee shirt sleeve. He was flipping open a lighter, but he stopped and sat up straight as we approached.

“Well, hello there, Red,” Maw Maw said.

“Hello, Miss Muriel,” he said, smiling, “These pretty girls your granddaughters?”

He looked even better up close, deeply tanned, his eyes a brilliant blue. What a lucky girl Virginia Mae Stowers was!

Papa came home from the plant that night in a bad mood. I hated it when he was that way. First, he got mad because he couldn't find the newspaper. We had all read it, and someone put it where it didn't belong. Then he got onto my little brothers for making too much noise, and when we sat down to supper, he got mad because we were having meatloaf.

“What are you looking at,” he said to me. I put my head down and continued eating.

Pitty Pat and I spent a long time discussing it after we had gone to bed. “It's not supposed to be this way,” I said, “When people get married, they're supposed to love each other and not make a big deal about what's for supper.”

After Pitty Pat went to sleep, I lay awake, imagining Virginia Mae Stowers and Red Hawk married and in a home of their own. They were really in love, and I just knew he would never get mad if she made meat loaf for supper.

The summer was coming to an end and it was only a couple of weeks before school began. Momma ordered me my first bra from Sears & Roebuck, size 28AA. I was really excited, but I soon learned it was really hard to get used to. On the one hand, I wanted to wear a bra, and on the other hand, I didn't want to bother with it. I wanted to run and play and be a kid, and I wanted to stand in front of my mirror and admire myself in my new bra.

The following Saturday afternoon, Pitty Pat and I went to The Strand to see How to Marry a Millionaire, starring Marilyn Monroe, Betty Grable and Lauren Bacall. It was the first movie at The Strand that was in Cinemascope, and everything looked bigger than life.

Not long after the movie began, Virginia Mae Stowers swept down the aisle, the scent of her heavy perfume wafting behind her. She sat down right in front of us. As Marilyn Monroe talked in her sexy voice, Virginia Mae Stowers turned around in her seat, like she was looking for someone, and as Marilyn and Betty were dressing for their dates with millionaires, she turned around again, craning her long neck, looking first one way and then the other. I watched her, and even quit eating my Milk Duds to look around myself, but nothing unusual seemed to be happening back there. I assumed she was looking for Red Hawk; maybe he was finishing up farming and would be there later.

As Marilyn's and Betty's dates arrived, Virginia Mae Stowers turned and waved at a short stocky boy, motioning him over. He smiled, sat down next to her, and put his arm around the back of her seat.

I hardly noticed what was happening during the rest of the picture show. Virginia Mae Stowers looked lovingly at the blond boy exactly as she had looked at Red Hawk, and the blond boy was treating her as nicely as Red Hawk had.

“Boy, I hope I can have nice clothes and an apartment exactly like those girls when I grow up,” Pitty Pat said as the blinding sunlight hit us outside the theatre, “Don't you?”

I couldn't think about the movie just then. I had just spotted Red Hawk's coupe.

It was just across the street, tucked between a large Buick and a pick-up truck. He was slumped in the seat, staring at the doors of the movie theatre, where Virginia Mae Stowers and the blond boy were departing, holding hands. She was wearing a deep green dress and the sling-back spike heels Red Hawk had bought for her at Effie's.

I wanted to watch and see what happened, but Maw Maw pulled up just then and we had to go.

When we got home, my brothers and sisters decided to play baseball. They begged me to play, but I was getting too old for such things. Young ladies put on lipstick and polished their nails. They washed their hair and rolled it up in pin curls. They did a lot of things, but one of them was not playing baseball. I had an odd feeling, though, when I heard the smack of the bat and everyone cheering.

The following Saturday dawned bright and hot. Pitty Pat and I rose early, anticipating our Saturday afternoon in town with Maw Maw. Momma made pancakes and sausage, as she always did on Saturdays, and the little ones squabbled as usual.

Pitty Pat and I decided to wear our matching checked dresses with square necks; mine was green; hers was red. I had just enough time to buff my long, red nails on the hem of my skirt before Maw Maw drove up.

It was so hot in town that the sidewalks seemed to shimmer. Everyone coming out of Petrie's with ice cream cones had to lick furiously to keep it from dripping. Tootsie wasn't walking so fast, and she wasn't wearing her tam. Shorty High, his bald head beaded with perspiration, tripped on his apron as he came out of the Kroger store with two huge bags of groceries, but he quickly steadied himself and loaded them into the trunk of Taylor Todd's Nash.

We were sitting in the Chevrolet, waiting for the picture show to begin, when we spotted Virginia Mae Stowers.

“She doesn't look so good,” Pitty Pat said.

She was wearing a red dress and red spike-heeled sandals and carrying a Ben Franklin sack. It was the smallest Ben Franklin sack I had ever seen, and I wondered what was in it.

She was in front of the car now, and she did look bad. There were dark circles under her eyes, and her hair wasn't curled like it usually was. The burnished coppery color was still beautiful, though; the sun was shining on it, and it looked sparkly.

Later, I looked at the Nestlé's Hair Tint at the Ben Franklin, but couldn't find one the same color as Virginia Mae Stowers's. I must have sniffed at least a dozen bottles of perfume before I found the kind that smelled like hers. I couldn't buy it though; even combining what both Pitty Pat and I had left, we didn't have the thirty-nine cents.

As we came out of the Ben Franklin, Virginia Mae Stowers and Red Hawk were standing on the corner in front of the Kroger store. He was wearing his pink nylon shirt, standing with his hands on his hips, his face close to hers. Her eyes were red, and she was shaking her head.

The clutches of old men along Front Street were quieter than usual, and the sky had taken on a yellowish glow as we walked to the car. I looked up at the sky, and when I looked back, Red Hawk had disappeared. Virginia Mae Stowers was standing, head down, the moist warm wind lifting her hair off her neck and blowing it in ringlets around her face. She looked up and down the street as she tried to light a cigarette, but her lighter kept going out, so she dropped it into her purse. She started to come down the street our way, then she turned and walked back to the corner. By the time we got into the car, she was gone.

Suddenly, the wind picked up.

“It's coming up a storm,” Pitty Pat said, rolling the window down and looking up at the sky.

The old men were holding onto their hats, some hurrying to their cars, when a black coupe rounded the corner. Red Hawk was at the wheel, moving at a snail's pace, and he was looking toward Front Street. He almost stopped in front of the Kroger Store, but he gunned the motor and sped out of sight.

The wind stopped blowing, everything becoming still, and lightening streaked across the sky. A loud blast of thunder shook us to our toes. I wondered if Pitty Pat was right; maybe a storm was coming.

“Help!”

The scream came out of nowhere.

Pitty Pat and I looked at each other and then back at the street, where people were stopping and looking around.

“Help! Help me!”

Virginia Mae Stowers suddenly appeared at the corner and began running down Front Street, “Help!”

Before we could say anything, Red Hawk materialized, grim-faced and pale. He lifted something, and Pitty Pat and I gasped. He was holding a shot gun.

He stopped, looked around, then he took off after her, barrel in the air, finger on the trigger.

“Help!” she screamed to a bunch of old men, “Help!”

Several scattered, and one stepped away, hands in the air. Tootsie, coming down the street, backed up and flattened her body against the bank building.

“Help me,” she screamed at Shorty High, “He's gonna kill me!”

Shorty stopped, dropping both bags of groceries. People ran in all directions as cans of stewed tomatoes, creamed corn and green beans rolled toward the curb.

She slowed in front of Petrie's, dropping her Ben Franklin sack and losing one of her high heels, still screaming, “He's gonna kill me! He's gonna kill me!”

She cut through the people in front of Effie's, the crowd moving back as she darted into the store, backing farther away as Red Hawk followed her inside, and swooping back in, horrified looks on their faces.

“Help!”

The ear-splitting crack of a gun shot pierced the air.

“No, no no,” she screamed, “No, Red, please!”

There was another gun shot. And then another. And another. And another.

For a second or two, everything became still; nothing moved. Pitty Pat and I stared at each other, unable to say a word, as the rain swept in.

Harsh, angry splats hit the sidewalks as people began screaming and running in all directions. Tootsie tripped on Virginia Mae Stowers's Ben Franklin sack, sending it skittering down the street, its lone content, a tiny bottle of Blue Waltz perfume, tumbling out of the sack, rolling and bumping along, and finally landing right-side-up. Rain hammered the overturned red high heel as people scuttled over it, kicking it here and there, but the bottle of Blue Waltz sat, unmoved, in the middle of the street.

I don't remember much after that. I know I felt like I was at the picture show, seeing the same movie over and over again. I know Maw Maw thanked the Lord that we were okay, and said those people who crowded into the alley just to look at Virginia Mae Stowers's dead body should be ashamed of themselves, and I remember the look on her face when she told Momma and Papa about it as Pitty Pat and I sat stiffly on the sofa. All I could think of was the lone red high heel sandal lying on its side, the Blue Waltz sitting in the middle of the sidewalk, and the relentless rain pounding them both.

It was in all the newspapers, even The Paducah Sun-Democrat. The first shot blew off one of her fingers, the second hit her shoulder as she ran out the back door. In the alley, he shot her three more times, killing her instantly.

Everyone said he didn't look like the Red Hawk they knew, and Shorty was quoted in the Paducah Sun-Democrat, “He looked like the devil had took over his body.”

The manhunt went on for two days and nights, and the sheriff and a bunch of deputies even stopped by our house. “He could be anywhere, we've got deputies all around the county,” Sheriff Bill Bowes told Papa, “Ballard and McCracken law enforcement are joining up with us, and we're bringing in the blood hounds.”

I kept imagining Red Hawk running around somewhere, maybe the Mississippi River bottoms just below our house, the hounds hot on his heels, wing tips caked with mud, pink nylon shirt in shreds. In bed, pressed close to Pitty Pat, I lay awake, unable to sleep, fearing I might see him peering through our bedroom window and wondering if he might be hiding in the woods nearby.

It all ended when they found him in Billy Reeve's abandoned barn, hanging from a rafter. His suicide note had three words scrawled on it: I'm sorry Momma.

Virginia Mae Stowers's funeral was held at First Baptist. We heard that most of the county attended; they had to borrow chairs from every other church in town to accommodate them. They said her sister sang Standing on the Promises, and everyone in the congregation was all torn up. They had to pull her mother off the casket.

The next day, a graveside service was held for Red Hawk. Maw Maw went, and she said only three people were there, besides his mother.

That night at supper Papa gave us a talking-to. “We don't know why these things happen,” he said, “Y'all will just have to put it out of your minds,” and things like that. Momma served meat loaf, and Papa didn't even complain. After supper, he hugged her and put his arm around her.

I gazed at Momma and Papa as they walked into the living room. They were still here, loving each other, and Virginia Mae Stowers and Red Hawk were dead.

We went to town with Maw Maw the next Saturday, and the next. We bought our movie magazines, went to the picture show and sat in the Chevrolet, watching the people walk by. I turned twelve just before school started, and I finally got used to wearing a bra, but I couldn't stand to even look at false finger nails or Nestlé's Hair Tint, and for a good long while, when a girl walked past me wearing Blue Waltz perfume, it all came back and I saw Virginia Mae Stowers and Red Hawk arm-in-arm, her bronze hair swirling in ringlets around her face, his smiling blue eyes, the look of pure love on his face, as they walked down Front Street those warm Saturday afternoons.

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Sunday, May 3, 2009

Work it Out Without Me!

"It's very important to have the right clothing to exercise in. If you throw on an old T-shirt or sweats, it's not inspiring for your workout." ~ Cheryl Tiegs


It's a well-known fact that we writers don't like to break a sweat. Most of our days, when not searching for an excuse to procrastinate are spent at a computer keyboard.

Me? I have never been into any kind of physical exercise unless it is the up and down movement of my mouth while talking or eating, most often in tandem. Although at different times in my life I have felt the need to get with the program, I am no longer intimidated by those urges. I have stopped buying health club memberships just to get a card that too often sits in my billfold until it expires.

The last time I was in a gym, I looked around at all the young, cavorting members and quickly became conscious of my state of under-dress. I was wearing a timeworn University of South Carolina T-shirt, circa 1962, the year I would have graduated had I not majored in fraternity pin collections. The gym shorts I wore that day had at one time belonged to Babe, which is to say that either he was much smaller back then or I am now much larger. Yikes! Lets not go there.

I cringed the minute I stepped inside that oversized den of stinky sweat and throbbing tendons. I could hardly ignore the throng of well-turned-out Barbies all dressed in gymnastically correct leotards and coordinated thongs. A sudden craving for serious chocolate dropped down on top of me quick as you please, as if it had come straight from God. So I high-tailed it out of there and headed for Sweet Mama's Bakery where they don't give a hoot how I'm dressed. If God had intended for me to bend over, I told myself, I'd be growing diamonds in my garden instead of pansies.

That same night, Babe, my good humored, always-hungry husband, lifted the lid on a pan of Southern fried chicken I was cooking for supper. "Hell-ooooo," he exclaimed, "I'm betting another health club bit the dust today!" The look I shot him replaced that of a less than ladylike gesture.

It is true that I have joined too many health clubs in the past thinking I'll regain some resemblance to the size-six I used to be, and Babe usually supports my infrequent urges to eat cabbage and kale for seven days in a row hoping to lose a pound or two. He even claims to like kale, although I'm pretty sure he still wonders what it is. On our last anniversary, the last of the big-time spenders gifted me with a new bicycle instead of the ten days at Canyon Ranch for which I had not so subtly hinted. What a guy.

A humor writer friend of mine once joined a gym as follow-up to a New Year's Resolution and, because he's a quick study, the first question he asked was, "Has anybody ever died in this place?" The trainer assigned to give him the nickel tour wore a mouth full of Chicklet teeth and too much mascara. "I wouldn't be caught dead in any other place," she quipped without batting an eyelash.

His question and her response got me thinking. What was this silly notion of mine all about anyway? Why did I feel the need to heed my nagging inner voice each time it shouted, "No pain, no gain."

Was I trying to stay healthy or just grasping at straws in hopes of reclaiming a portion of my youth? At my age, I've just about run out of portions.

When I am even older and my bones have turned brittle and clack like a bad-fitting set of false teeth, and/or my hair has turned white and wiry and falls out in clumps, I may feel a bit of remorse. I might well regret having spent so much of my life in front of a computer keyboard instead of straddling a stationary bike. But until the dawning of that day, I'll just keep working my jaws up and down and riding my little old lady's bike while I hope for a trickle down result.

The bad news is nothing will ever restore my youth, but the good news is I won't need to wear fashionable workout clothes while bike riding in my neighborhood.

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Saturday, May 2, 2009

Blue Waltz - Part 1


BLUE WALTZ

Brenda Wilson Wooley

It was the summer of 1952, before Elvis and rock and roll, Hoola Hoops and Barbie dolls, before Marlon Brando got famous and James Dean died. General Eisenhower had retired as Supreme Allied Commander and was running for President, and Papa was working for F. H. McGraw, the construction company that was building the big Carbide Nuclear Plant near Paducah. We had a new family car, and we older kids were all getting a dollar a week allowance. Things were booming in Western Kentucky.

My younger sister and I would celebrate our birthdays later that summer (my twelfth; Pitty Pat's tenth), and every Saturday afternoon we went to town with Maw Maw Winslow in her brand new green Chevrolet. While she was buying her groceries, running errands and talking to friends, we spent our allowances on soft drinks and movie magazines, saving a quarter apiece for tickets and Milk Duds or popcorn to munch on during the picture show. Afterward, we sat in the Chevrolet on Front Street, watching the people stroll by as we waited for the picture show to start.

“It's almost time,” I said one Saturday afternoon in late June.

We were finishing up Seven-Up's and bags of Planters peanuts as Hank Williams's Jambalaya, drifted from the radio.

Pitty Pat dropped more peanuts into her Seven-Up and watched it fizz. “Wonder where she's going so fast every Saturday,” she said.

Tootsie, the owner of the Bardwell Food Market, was rushing down the street, dressed in her usual slacks and a tam. She was always in a hurry, waving, joking and calling out greetings to everyone on Front Street.

“I wonder a lot of things,” I said, “Like why doesn't anything ever change in this town.”

Shorty High, the bagger at Kroger's, was carrying groceries to people's cars. He was the shortest man I had ever seen; his long white apron cleared the sidewalk by inches. I had never known a Saturday afternoon when he wasn't rushing back and forth from the store to various cars, loaded down with groceries, a smile on his round, pink face.

People were coming and going from Petrie's Drugs and the Ben Franklin, licking ice cream cones, digging into grease-soaked bags of popcorn. And old men stood in clutches in front of the stores talking and laughing, some stopping every now and then to spit smack on the sidewalk.

“Wow,” Pitty Pat said, “Look!”

A young man and woman were strolling down the street, looking at each other, oblivious to everyone else. She had long shining red hair, full, dark red lips, and wore a silky rust-colored dress, a small matching clutch purse tucked under her arm. On her feet were high platform heels. The young man had reddish brown slicked-back hair, and he was dressed in a light brown suit and a yellow tie. His wing tips were polished to a high gloss.

“Well, I guess it's about time for y'all to go,” Maw Maw said, slipping into the driver's seat, “I think I'll visit with Hat while y'all are at the picture show.”

Miss Hat, a widow like Maw Maw, was her best friend. She lived just across the alley from The Strand, and Maw Maw often visited her while we were at the picture show. All they talked about were old times and people who had been dead for years.

The shining couple was directly in front of the car now. Her dress swirled around her slim legs as she stepped off the curb, the man's hand at her elbow.

“Who are they?” I said.

“That's Goebel Hawk's boy. His name is Goebel, Jr., but they all call him Red,” she said, “Goebel died when Red was still in grade school. They've had a terrible time, but the boy works hard as a farm hand and lives with his Momma. He takes real good care of Lily. She's a fine woman, and a godly woman, too. It's been awful hard for her since Goebel died.”

Maw Maw knew the history of everyone in the county, and she usually went on way too long, but this time I was hanging on to every word. I wanted to know all about this intriguing couple.

As they crossed the street, the girl's hips swinging from side to side, several old men on the corner stopped talking and spitting and stared at her.

“Who's that girl with him?”

Maw Maw raised her eyebrows and pursed her lips, “That's Virginia Mae Stowers. She works as a waitress. The family moved in from away from here. Missouri, I think.”

She put the Chevrolet in reverse, “She wasn't raised like Red was.”

“How was she raised?”

“Well, I don't really know.”

“Then how do you know she wasn't raised like Red Hawk was?”

“From what Lily said.”

“What did she say?”

“She's not too happy about it.”

“About what?”

“Them getting engaged.”

As we headed out of Bardwell, I pictured Virginia Mae Stowers gliding down the aisle in a long white dress, Red Hawk standing at the front of the church, a look of pure love on his face. Outside of the picture show, they were the most romantic couple I had ever seen.

After we got home, I sashayed back and forth in front of my bedroom mirror, swinging my hips from side to side, but I just couldn't get it right. I stopped and gazed at my reflection. My hair was kind of reddish, too, although not as red as Virginia Mae Stowers's. Hers was shoulder length, though, so I vowed to let mine grow long.

At supper that night, I watched Momma and Papa, wondering if they had ever looked at each other the way Virginia Mae Stowers and Red Hawk did. They acted like they cared about each other, but somehow it was different. Here were all of us kids and Papa always going to work and Momma cooking and washing clothes all the time. Where was the romance? The loving looks? Did it stop when people had kids and stuff like that? I vowed that when I met a boy like Red Hawk I would have romance in my life. For the rest of my life.

The following Friday night, Maw Maw called to tell us Effie was getting a shipment on Saturday. We needed to get there early, she said.

When Effie received a new shipment of used shoes, every woman and girl in the county showed up at her shop early on Saturday morning. Pitty Pat and I couldn't wait to get there. We were both determined to get a pair of saddle oxfords for school. You were nobody in school if you didn't wear a big plaid shirt hanging over a pair of Levis rolled up to just below your knees. The only acceptable footwear was brown-and-white saddle oxfords.

The radio was playing at Effie's, as it always was, so we pushed and shoved with the rest of the women to Kitty Wells' It Wasn't God Who Made Honky Talk Angels. And by the time Hank Williams was finishing up I'll Never Get Out of this World Alive, we had found saddle oxfords in our sizes. Maw Maw paid for them, and then we had to wait until she finished talking with Effie. We dreaded standing around; we were bored stiff. Until Virginia Mae Stowers and Red Hawk walked in.

To be continued May 7, 2009

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