Monday, November 29, 2010

River Feast, A Poem


River Feast, A Poem


Once on a rock
Below Juliette, GA in the Oc.
Four fishermen broke leaven
near Shoal Bass heaven.
Standing in the Ocmulgee waist deep
Our kayaks tethered from drifting down river to keep.
For my several PB&J,

The previous day,
The whole wheat flour was freshly milled,
And when baked With homemade jelly and Skippy was filled.
The bread was baked immediately after the flour milling
And the on formula combination was healthy and filling.
Troy broke out his boiled shrimp.
They were firm, fresh, & spicy not limp.
Served from a plastic bag coated inside with spice,
The shrimp were a surprise and the size very nice.
The came Bill Bell with smoked salmon on a plank
shared with us there on the rock, not on the bank
A gourmet delight,
The smoky flavor and the texture was just right.
Drew came last with as usual the canned soup,
But as he ate, he circled the loop.
Tasting some of all as we all did,
Drew was a voracious, food devouring kid.
I remember him once having a breakfast of the Burrito Bomb,
Chased down with a Red Bull, burping with aplomb.
We were eating that day, sharing like kings at a throne
Except Drew had his corn chowder all alone.
He offered but no one except Drew wanted the canned fare.
So Drew drank it cold, burped and said, there.
Before the corn chowder juice could run down his chin,
He picked up his rod gave the shoal bass a spin.
A memorable meal for four friends on a lark
Four river men fishing from dark to dark.



© Blackwater Bill Prince 2010

Friday, November 26, 2010

The Little Girls

The Little Girls

by gina below


There was a time many years ago early in our careers as corn row assassins that we were notorious. We were tomboy terrors of the tomato field and we could manage to find trouble most anywhere. We were mayhem magnified by three, walking, talking, Calamity Jane's. Afraid of nothing, but spiders, snakes, spankings and the dark. Lucky for most people you could hear us coming a long way off, the giggling & talking always preceded us, which gave you ample time to flee in the other direction. We were so notorious that we had a name for our gang, we had been dubbed ...."THE LITTLE GIRLS"!

We could make grown men roll their eyes in frustration and walk away shaking their heads, with total confusion etched upon their faces. But we terrorized none more than our Great Uncle James. Poor Uncle James, he just did not know what to do with us most days. We would gang up on the sweet man and strike him speechless with our rapid fire questions. We had not known a time without him, he was more of a Grandfather to the lot of us, a benevolent protector that took us fishing. But our shenanigans on more than one occasion got us sent home to our Mother or in the house to see what our Aunt Vera was doing. But on the occasions when he had no other recourse, he would have to handle us himself. That was usually a slightly raised voice saying " You boys better stop that now" and we would immediately stop what we were doing to correct him. With hands on our hips and a look of total disbelief on our faces, we would say in unison with a slightly high pitched whine "We're not boys, we're girls" and then we would cock our heads ever so dramatically and look up to the heavens for understanding for this poor confused man that we adored. With a smile playing at his lips he would say in an innocent response, "Well I guess you are, aren't you, I would have sworn you were boys", and we would giggle and go on about our business leaving him in blessed peace.

He was fourth of July with hand cranked home made ice cream, watermelons under the shade tree, and ice cold Coke in a glass bottle and my first job pickin' cotton and most of my summer jobs there after in the sweet potato field. He was Wrigley's chewing gum and peppermint candy, and sitting on the same church pew every Sunday with my Aunt Vera. He was a straw hat with a wide brim and overalls and he never missed a Christmas that he didn't bring us a box of apples and oranges. He was a wave from the porch swing as I drove by in later years when I became to busy to stop by.

The last time I saw him, he asked my younger sister (one of my former partners in crime) and I "How are you boys"? Our grown up selves would not let us reply in any other way but, "We're fine". But "The Little Girls" in us wanted to giggle and say "We're not boys, we're girls". As we hugged his neck he said, "I guess you are, aren't you" and he smiled that sweet smile of his and we did giggle. We could not help ourselves.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

A Spitfire in the Leg

A Spitfire in the Leg
By Robert Grede

At daybreak, George quietly led his horse to the riverbank, mud trails in the wet grass marking his path. His eye rested upon a row of ducks paddling in the shallows, their water rings speckled with early sunlight. The fowl swam and pecked and flustered and gossiped to one another in muffled tones. Suddenly, one fat mallard lifted from the raft and flew pell-mell into the sky, and George watched until it was lost in the mist rising from the river. He struggled to decipher the sweet pain that held his eye, this simple line of ducks, each so near, yet so close to being so far away. Behind him, the men of the Regiment slept soundlessly, their many tents ghostly in the mist. Without saying a word, George uttered his good-bye.

In town, people bustled from building to building, going about their morning chores, conducting business and trading stories with neighbors. Faint smoke billowed from an alley, carrying with it the odor of burning steel; a loud banging confirmed the blacksmith hard at his forge. In Courthouse Square, two old men sat whittling on a pine bench. A woman dressed in black peered into shop windows. The butcher held an animated conversation with a customer while absently twisting the neck of a chicken. Buggies and wagons and carriages of all models crowded the muddy streets. It could be any city in Wisconsin, or Massachusetts, or South Carolina. The War seemed a distant thing.

At the paymaster, George collected his wages and stuffed the bills into his haversack. He also discovered three letters at the postmaster’s and buried these in a coat pocket. At Emma Jones’s CafĂ© on Garden Street, he found a seat at a wobbly table near the window and ordered coffee from a woman with a broad grin and gaps between her yellow teeth. She said things like “Hey-ho,” and called him “Partner” and he liked her immediately. When his coffee arrived, he tipped her generously and was rewarded with a “Hey-ho” and a yellow grin.

He opened his first envelope eagerly and recognized the gently slanting script of Elizabeth Atkinson. His hand quivered with a nervous weakness as he carefully read her words. But disappointment quickly embraced him as she delivered only banal news of a sheltered life at Mount Holyoke: heavy snows last week, a gathering of charades with friends, plans to tap her uncle’s maple trees for syrup. She never once mentioned the war except to say, “George, be careful.” It was signed, Love, but George recognized that to be an affectation and not what he preferred it to mean. He tugged at his moustache and tucked the letter back into his pocket.
The second letter, a brief missive from his mother, carried news of home, the successful harvest, his sister’s brief illness, and his father’s activities in local politics. It aroused in him reflections upon a life that seemed a distant memory, and he laid the letter aside.

The last letter came from an address he did not recognize. Greetings from O.F. Mason, President of Cudahy Stockyards. It was an invitation to discuss employment following the conclusion of hostilities. He read slowly. Stockyard business… negotiations and transactions… advancement opportunities... Edward strongly commends… The cheery voice and round laugh came to him then. George remembered eyebrows with a peculiar jump and jerk when Ed Mason sang harmony, his voice floating above the camp, strains of Nelly Bly in high tenor. A “spitfire in the leg” is what he had called his injury. But a butcher took off the leg, and Private Ed Mason died just after Christmas.

Outside, blowing bits of sleet and snow tapped against the windowpane as if chanting. George put aside his coffee and sat, shoulders hunched, and re-read the proposition, examined the words individually, searching for meaning behind the sentences. He drummed his fingers upon the wooden table and thought of things he wished he had said to Ed Mason.

An old woman entered the store and a gust of wind burst in behind her, rustling his papers. He opened again the letter from his mother and he saw her animated face glowing in the light of the kitchen stove. An overwhelming sadness engulfed him as if a great weight had fallen upon his chest, and he struggled to control his breathing. The loss of his youth balanced poorly against the loss of Ed Mason’s life.
He quietly folded the pages and stuffed the letters deep into his haversack. “Hey-ho” offered more coffee but he declined, tipped his hat, and braced for the cold.
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Robert Grede has been a carpenter, musician, teacher, entrepreneur, consultant, and dad. For fun, he writes string quartets. He is the author of several books, including the best selling, Naked Marketing – The Bare Essentials [Prentice Hall] and the novel, The Spur & The Sash (www.TheSpurandTheSash.com), a true story of love, passion, and betrayal amid the anarchy of post Civil War Tennessee.

Go here for more information on The Spur and The Sash and hear an interview with the Robert.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Desire


DESIRE

by

Carl R. Purdon

I knew she was trouble the first time I saw her. Something in the way she stood reminded me of the others. The way she moved about the room with her hypnotic innocence. The way she looked in my direction without seeing me. Wrapped up in her own world as if me and my small cubicle didn’t exist.

Her blonde hair flowed across her shoulders, tangled in a single ray of sunlight that had cheated its way through the slats of the closed blinds. The fist-sized flowers on her dress followed her curves and tricked my eyes into looking more than I should have allowed myself to look. She was a living breathing floral arrangement. So much for starting over in a new city.

I tried to busy myself with the task of transferring the tools of my trade from the cardboard box to their rightful places on and in my new desk. Pens and pencils, notepads, and a tape recorder small enough to fit into my shirt pocket came out of the box first. Reporters, even junior reporters like me, should never be caught without the means to capture a moment.

She turned and lifted a slat in the blinds with her finger and peeked out the window. More sunlight drilled through. For a tiny slice of time the dreary room filled with the hope of sunshine. But that hope vanished when her finger allowed the slat to fall back into place. I stared at her back, devouring her with my eyes, invading her privacy without her having the slightest clue. Twice I looked away, trying to resist those old urges, urges that burned in the pit of my stomach like hot coals. I guessed at her height; just under five-six. Her hips were full, perhaps a little too full for someone of her size, but they added character to an otherwise perfect body. The hem of her dress brushed the delicious bends of her knees. Even the backs of her legs were tanned. She turned and I searched her face for the slightest imperfection that might stop my torture. But it was not to be. Her perfect mouth, straight, shaped into neither a frown nor a smile, outlined by full unpainted lips only increased my desire. Her eyes showed not the slightest hint of emotion. It was as if I had been given a blank canvas and the talent to fill it from my own secret dreams. The very thought of approaching her made my palms sweat.

She moved away from the window and disappeared into a cubicle identical to my own. I lifted my dictionary from the box and wiped a layer of dust from the tattered cover. My mother, God rest her soul, bought it for me when I started working for the local newspaper fresh out of high school. It didn’t matter to her that I only worked the mailroom. “If you’re gonna be a reporter you gotta have a good dictionary.” Mother believed in me.

“Forget her,” a strange voice said, “she’s a cold fish.” I looked up at my uninvited guest. He wore polyester pants and a checkered sweater. A toothpick dangled from his thin lips. He smiled and revealed tobacco stained teeth. His high cheekbones dominated the shape of his face, reminding me of The Joker in the Batman cartoons I read when I was a kid. His hair looked wet, the kind of wet that never dries. He stroked his pencil-thin mustache as he looked down at me. I detested him immediately.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I said, returning my concentration to my cardboard box.

"My guess is she’s a dike,” he said. “Hit on her myself a couple of times. A real cold fish.”

“I’ll keep that in mind,” I said. Yes, already I hated him.

After lunch I slipped from the safety of my cubicle and hurried down the hall to make some copies for my first assignment. The room was small, not much bigger than the walk-in closet in my new apartment, and reeked with the coppery smell of toner and fresh paper. Right in the center stood the copier and I wondered how in the world they got it through the doorway. Maybe they built the room around it, I thought, or assembled it on the spot. Suddenly I sensed her behind me.

My nostrils savored the enchanting fragrance of fresh-cut flowers, not any certain variety of flower, but an entire garden. She smelled just as I imagined she would. My palms began to sweat onto the papers in my hand. My breathing became shallow and quick. I prayed for her to go away, to leave me without speaking.

The static whine of the copier masked my pounding heartbeat. I fed my last sheet into the beast and waited for it to spit out my reproduction. My hands trembled as I retrieved it. I felt her eyes burning me and imagined those soft lips smiling at my embarrassment. How could she not enjoy an internal chuckle at my expense? Seeing me come apart just from being near her, how could she not pity me?

“Are you finished?” Her voice was smooth, like a silk sheet floating to rest on a new mattress. My God, did she have no blemishes at all?

“Yes, yes I am.” I brushed past her, avoiding direct eye contact, struggling to maintain my self-control. But just as I reached the freedom of the hallway I stopped and stole a quick glimpse of her face.

“My name’s Arnold,” I said, barely audible.

“Excuse me?” She turned to face me. Her eyes captivated me with their translucent blue innocence.

“Ar-Arnold,” I stuttered, “my name is Arnold. I’m new here.”

“Oh,” she said, “I’m Susan, it’s nice to meet you.” She smiled and stuck out her hand but I couldn’t touch her, not yet. So I just stood there like a statue, worse, like an idiot, my face growing every shade of red imaginable.

Susan, yes, I knew her name now, withdrew her hand and turned her attention to the coping machine.

Just like that she dismissed my attraction for her. One by one she fed a small stack of sheets into the machine. I wanted to interrupt her again, to ask her for a date. A simple three-letter word from her could change everything, but it was not to be. I mentally rehearsed every conceivable way of asking but there could only be one answer. If only I were tall, dark and handsome instead of short, pale and plain. Suddenly I was fifteen again and she was the first girl I ever asked out -- the first girl who ever turned me down. I walked back to my desk, my safe haven, like a zombie. My dad had been right all along -- I was a loser.

“Don’t sweat it, Mack. I told you she was a cold fish. Look, let me set you up with a babe I know. She won’t let you down, if you know what I mean.” It was him again. The obnoxious toothpick with the wet hair.

“My name’s not Mack, it’s Arnold and I’m not in the mood for conversation right now, okay?”

“Whoa, Mack, don’t take it out on me.” He held his hands up like I had a gun on him. “Derk’s the name and love’s the game. I can set you up. What do you want, redhead, blonde? You like blondes. I can tell. Look, you’re new here. Tell you what I’m gonna do.”

“Look! I’m not interested in your babes, or chicks, or whatever it is you call them. Just leave me alone, okay?” Maybe it was my eyes (I’ve been told my eyes can be fierce at times), I don’t know, but something scared him away. Thank you, God.

I tried to put her out of my mind, to get back to my unfinished article. I didn’t need to miss another first deadline. For the remainder of the day I buried my nose in my computer screen and tried to think of anything but her.

We met at the copier again the next day. Actually, we bumped into each other in the doorway. She was coming out, I was going in. An inch-thick file folder tumbled from her hands and hit the tile floor. Papers fanned out onto the floor like a peacock’s tail.

“I’m sorry,” I stammered, and dropped to my knees to retrieve the papers. She squatted beside me, our faces only inches apart. I envisioned our lips touching, slowly at first, then with the fury of passion. Strangely, she didn’t seem at all upset with me.

“Good move, Slick.” It was Derk. I shot him a warning glance.

“Get lost Derk,” she said, “it was an accident.”

“Sure, sure, sweet cheeks, I’ve used that accident myself a few times. Maybe you don’t know it but Romeo here’s got the hots for you. He wants to do the belly bop with you. Told me so yesterday.”

I dropped the papers I had collected then scrambled to recover them. I could feel the crimson heat searing my face.

“One more word out of you and I file a sexual harassment suit,” she said. Derk disappeared.

“I-I’m sorry,” I said.

It took me three days to get over my embarrassment enough to risk another trip to the copy room. On my way past her desk I overheard the editor, giving her directions to a six-car pileup out on the interstate. I hurried back to my desk, grabbed my jacket and slipped out the side door which opened directly into the parking garage.

Seconds later I heard the hollow echo of her high heels tapping the sidewalk and ricocheting off the concrete walls. I moved toward the sound and rounded the corner just in time to see her door close and brake lights flash.

“Hey! Wait up!” I ran toward her car as she backed out of her spot. “Wait for me!” She stopped. I ran to her window and looked through the glass at her surprised face. She cracked the glass just enough to hear my explanation. “The boss told me to tag along.”

“Why?”

“Uh, he said I needed to learn my way around.”

“Oh, well, I guess it’s okay. Get in.”

She fingered a button on her door and I heard the door locks thump. I pulled the back door open and slid into the seat directly behind her.

“You’re welcome to ride up front, you know.”

"No, I-I’m afraid I get carsick if I ride in the front.” I saw her face wrinkle in the rear-view mirror. My pulse raced. Adrenaline spurted into my bloodstream and blurred my peripheral vision. My face felt hot, like fever.

“Okay,” she said, “but just tell me if you start feeling sick and I’ll pull over. I just paid fifty bucks to have this thing cleaned.” Her words faded into a drone of background noise. My mind flashed scenes of my past in front of my eyes, keeping time with my rapid breathing.

“Are you okay? You’re not getting sick are you?” Her sluggish voice, like that of a record playing at slow speed, became lost in the mix of other voices. My hand found the silk scarf in the side pocket of my jacket. I wrapped the ends around my fists and pulled it tight. “If you’re getting sick you can get out and get some fresh air before we start moving. It might do you good.” I stared into the blonde hair on the back of her head and noticed her dark roots. Fake, just like the others. My focus relaxed and my vision doubled, then blurred again, completely this time. I could see nothing but Jenny Olsen -- she had been the first. “Hey, do you need a doctor?” I mechanically moved the scarf over her head and brought it down to touch the soft front of her neck. “What are you...”

Sweat dotted my forehead as the intense rush began to subside. When I pulled the scarf from her neck I pressed it against my face and inhaled the mix of perfumes. My bouquet.

THE END


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Author: Carl Purdon

Carl Purdon was born in Pontotoc, Mississippi in 1964 and currently lives there with his wife and two children. Writing has been a favorite pastime of his for most of his life and he is currently seeking representation for his recently-completed novel.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Imaginary War

Imaginary War

The sun shining yellow and

gold like brass bugling in

the morning the sweet kiss

of dawn on a cold cheek echoing

in the valley the mess kits

and the whisper of guns the tally

of petals on a flower, cupid's

arrows red as blood, sharp and

hot as bullets the beat of

the heart till all love is still.


by: Danny P. Barbare

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

LISTEN TO THE MOCKINGBIRD


LISTEN TO THE MOCKINGBIRD

"Maw, Maw, come quick! Me 'n Paw's been cuttin' firewood down by the river 'n a big limb done rolled off'n the wagon and falled on him. We got to get back quick 'cause he's hurt bad," Lucas yelled, as he collapsed onto the porch.

I came out of the warm kitchen and into the blustery wind which had picked up a might strong since dawn. When he saw me, Lucas sat up, but was still breathing hard.

"Did you try pullin' it off him?" I asked. "Yessam, but it be too heavy for me to move it, ev'n a bit. 'Sides, if'n I could 've got Paw loose, there'd be nary a way to 've got 'em onta' the wagon."

I ran back into the house, and started getting things together: a blanket, some rags, what little water I had without having to go to the well, and smellin' salts, just in case.

"Lucas, go put on one of your Paw's shirts under your roundabout. The wind's comin' up somethin' fierce," I said, as I wrapped a shawl around my shoulders and tied on my bonnet. "Bessie Mae, Abigail, you two 'ave got to stay here 'til we get back wi' your Paw. Jus' be sure an' keep the fire goin'. I 'pect it's goin' to be gettin' colder as the day goes by."

Lucas and I started out afoot in the direction of the river, but I knew it would be some time before we'd get to where my Jonathan was. We didn't talk much, both of us lost in our own thoughts, I suppose, but over and over I prayed, "Oh Lord, please don't let 'im be hurt bad, or worse, dead."

It was well past noontime when we reached the place where Jonathan was lying alongside the wagon, a huge limb from a water oak tree pinning one of his legs. When I bent down over him, he was pale and still. "Jonathan, darlin', I'm here," I said, as I poured some water onto a rag and mopped his face, then tried to get him to take a drink. He didn't swallow, so the water just ran down along the side of his face.

"Lucas, go unhitch th' horse an' ride full chisel to Doc Wall. Tell 'im he has to come right away." So Lucas rode into town to look for Doc Wall, while this time I prayed, "Please don't let him be drunk like he was when Abigail was bein' birthed."
.
I set about covering Jonathan with the blanket the best I could, then sat down and put his head in my lap. Rocking him a bit, I started singing his favorite song.

Listen to the mockingbird,
Listen to the mockingbird,
The mockingbird still singing o'er her grave;
Listen to the mockingbird,
Listen to the mockingbird,
Still singing where the weeping willows wave.

Finally, along towards dusk, Lucas and Doc Wall came riding up full tilt. Doc was off his horse in a split second, carrying his black bag and an axe. Lucas tried his best to bend a few of the smaller branches out of the way so Doc could get a good look at Jonathan.

"You know, we jes might hav' to take his leg," he said. I moved closer and watched as Doc Wall listened to Jonathan's chest. Then slowly standing up, he shook his head and said, "I 'pect now, though, there's not that much of a hurry to remove the limb as I might've thought."

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Carol Rhodes’s widely published works, including short stories, essays, poetry, non-fiction articles, and plays, have appeared in such publications as newspapers The Houston Chronicle, Christian Science Monitor, Stroud (England) News & Journal, and The Houston Press; magazines Country Home, Good Old Boat, and Texas; as well as numerous journals and anthologies.

Carol has won many literary awards for poetry and prose. Her play, Comin’ Home to Burnstown, was showcased in a summer play festival of an off-Broadway theatre.

She continues to write while occasionally presenting business writing seminars at two universities and for several corporate clients.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Caroline Blue

Caroline Blue
by
Brian Ted Jones
1--
Caroline Blue stood and looked around the empty dining room of Louanne’s Kountry Kitchen. She glanced at the sides of splintery lattice propped against the walls, and at the paintings of maize, garlic and red peppers that hung between each window. She was irate.
“Now I’ve been workin since I was in the ninth grade,” she said to the cook.
The cook was an old choctaw woman with a happy face and a body shaped like an onion. A shadow of mustache patched above her loose mouth. She rolled frybread and listened.
“Mmm,” she said, giggling, not looking at Caroline.
Caroline was a solid woman, almost tall, with blondstreaked hair. If she were a little bigger in the chest, or a little smaller round the waist, you might could have called her busty. Instead, figurewise, she was what she was: a woman in her early thirties who did not exercise, who had dieted off and on all her life, but who nonetheless believed, even in her heart, that certain events--ballgames, movies, county fairs--simply demanded her to eat.
“And I aint sayin I mind workin!” she went on. “Not at all. In fifteen years I aint called in sick hardly none but what I could count on two hands, and I’ve always had me a job, except after each of the boys was born, you know.”
“Nn,” the cook said, softly punching dough.
“So I aint complainin about workin,” Caroline continued, “not one bit. But dadgummit, workin folks deserves respect!”
“Yep.”
“So when those little turds come in,” Caroline was getting to her point. “Highern a kite, each of them orderin a basket of chilicheese fries and leavin a grody mess like that on the table, and keeps me runnin back and forth refillin their cokes, gigglin an mouthin off the whole time, then leave me a little old dollar for a tip, in change, and dont even shut the dadblasted door on the way out? Huh-uh! That aint right!”
The cook nodded. She picked up the patty of dough and dropped it into the basket of fizzing amber grease.
A little red car drove off the highway and into the diner’s parking lot. A few seconds later, a bigboned girl of seventeen entered the restaurant. The bells hanging from the inside doorknob jingled. The door didnt close all the way, but the big girl didnt seem to care. She was sweaty, and she carried a gray money bag.
“Whew!” she said. “It is HOT out there. And people is gettin pissy, too, cause I told em we’s chargin on deliveries.”
“Well,” Caroline said, “I told you that’d happen. But with gas where it is, Louanne just cant expect you to pay for delivery gas outta your own pocket.”
“I know!” the girl said.
“You just wouldnt end up makin any money,” Caroline finished.
“Nope,” said the cook. “Gotta make money.”
“Well,” the girl went on, “that’s what I told Louanne. I said to her, it’s simple business administration! Youve got to take in more than you spend! It’s the profit principle. Everybody knows about it.”
Caroline bunched her lips at the girl’s spouted knowledge--Vo Tech had made her haughty--then picked up a gray washrag. She tossed it back and forth between her hands like a slinky. The delivery girl waited a second for more of a response, then huffed when it didnt come. She tapped her feet, pulled the bottom of her gray teeshirt up to wipe sweat from her mouth. She exposed a slab of white belly.
“Order,” the cook called.
The girl groaned.
“What is it?”
Caroline lifted the styrofoam container from off the cook’s work station, nested it within a plastic take-out bag, and cracked the styrofoam.
“Indian taco,” she said.
The delivery girl groaned again and shook her head.
“All this food stinks up my car so bad!”
Caroline nodded, pursed her lips, and tied a bow on the bag. The delivery girl didnt need this job. Hadnt even had to apply for it. She was Louanne’s niece, and didnt need the money anyway. She just worked so she could have money for driving around and buying clothes and eating out.
“Here you go,” Caroline said. “Hospital. Pharmacy entrance.”
The delivery girl huffed, picked up the bag, and was out the door, jogging to her car. Caroline watched her through the window.
“That girl’s big,” she said.
“Mm,” the cook said from the back. “Healthy.”
“Yeah, I guess,” Caroline said. She looked down her shirt at her own chest. “I think her butt’s about doubled since she started workin here,” Caroline added.
The cook chuckled. “May be. Girl’s gotta lotta shape.”
Caroline shrugged, walked back to the kitchen, and opened the refrigerator. She screwed the lid off a pickle jar, picked out a spear with her fingers, and started to munch it. She turned around and looked back out the window. The delivery girl’s red car was stopped near the lip of the highway. It honked at a heavy brown pickup truck that was turning down toward the diner. Caroline recognized the truck, and crammed the rest of the pickle into her mouth.
“Rusty’s comi-g,” she said, mouth full of picklepulp, her throat burning at the acid.
“That’s nice,” the cook said. She was sipping from a styrofoam cup of coffee and straightening the clear plastic tubs of hamburger dressing and condiments.
Caroline finished the pickle, swallowed, and took a sip of watery Dr Pepper from her own cup. She smoothed the front of her shirt and swished soda around her mouth to clean out the pickle smell, then froze. Her heart began to stomp.
Rusty, her husband, and another woman, were getting out of the pickup truck.
*****
Brian Ted Jones was born in Oklahoma in 1984. He is a graduate of St. John's College in Annapolis. He lives in Oklahoma with his wife, Jenne, and their son Oscar.

Story Continued HERE

Monday, November 15, 2010

It was once so much fun to go “Boom!”

It was once so much fun to go “Boom!”
(Or, “The Old Toy Cannoneer’s Lament”)

He thinks back to when he was a lad –

To the innocent fun that he had

With a fuse and some powder

Making thunder much louder

Than a bright summer June day should have

Most fathers once felt that their boys

To become men must have the right toys

Like Grand-pap did before

Father went to the store

And passed down a sacred tradition

The cannon Dad brought home that day

No doubt sang out often in play

Now fond memories, then

Speak to him in his den

As he sees in it times far away

Lo! It was once so much fun to go “Boom!”

But the cannon stands mute in that room

For cruel time gave youth chase

Now it just takes up space -

It’ll be in his big yard sale soon.



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Bert Barnett

Bert Barnett has been a student of the War Between the States since his youth.

Bert has always had a subterranean interest in poetry, first indulging his muse in public school. (Thankfully, no examples from this period are believed to remain.)

He is presently at work on a book, tentatively entitled “Rhyme and Reasons: The Meaning and Power of Poetry in Civil War America”.

Friday, November 12, 2010

The Hammer and Sickle Tattoo



The Hammer and Sickle Tattoo
by Randy Lowens

When the iron door clanged shut behind me and I stepped into direct
sunlight for the first time in six months, I knew the first place I
was headed was Ace McCray's Hometown Tattoos and Video Parlor. But I
wasn't going to get a tattoo. I was going to have one removed. The
hammer and sickle on my left shoulder blade had to go.

Big city jails have changed over the years. We all griped when they
banned smoking, of course, but other changes were made, too. Like the
cameras that watch you day and night. The automatic lights that go on
at eight AM and off at eleven. Except they never all go off, so a man
lives in a state of perpetual soft glow that blends with the ceaseless
chatter of the card players nearby and the hum of traffic in the
distance. You rest a little, but you never really sleep.

But the Beauregard County clink wasn't like that. It was, and I assume
still is, a pokey of the old school. You never saw such a backwoods
stinkhole in all your life.

Beauregard County is the poorest in all south Alabama, so I reckon
that says a lot. No tax base to pay for cameras and security lights.
Instead, a guard still patrols the hallway—or doesn't, if the sheriff
is gone—and turns the lights on and off whenever he deems it necessary
or convenient.

I liked it at first, early in my sentence. I mean, at night a man
could sleep in total darkness. And it was near abouts to quiet, too,
cause the card sharks couldn't see to play after the sun went down. So
you just lie in the cool of the evening, feeling the breeze from the
fan ripple the sheets against the steel frame, listening to the
birdsong and crickets outside. And the other sounds, too, of course,
the ever present jailhouse sounds: the rhythmic creaking of a man
alone on his bunk, or the moans that escape a pair of lovers. Stifled
sobs. A sudden cry of terror in the morning hour. You always hope it
was only a bad dream, and try to go back to sleep.

Anyway, I was pretty happy for the first month or two of my sentence.
Or as happy as a man in lockdown ever gets. Then the midnight visits
started.

#

You get to know your cellmates when you serve a sentence. You don't
really want to, but you do. Each stretch starts with the same
attitude: “Just gonna build my time. Stay out of trouble. Stick to
myself, and be out before I know it.” But you get bored. You get
lonely, so you join in an occasional conversation. Besides, there's
nowhere to hide.

The one thing that no jailhouse, urban or rural, offers is privacy.
You take a shower and step out into a room full of men. Some guys love
it; you can tell. They take their time, taking long, slow swipes
across their backs with the towel. Others get out, grab a rag and
throw it around their waists before they're half dry.

A hard attitude, or a reputation for savagery, goes a long way towards
protecting a man in jail. So does striking an imposing figure while
dripping wet. I never minded being middling size, myself. Never wanted
to be a small fellow who invites attack, nor so large as to draw a lot
of admiring or envious stares. I'm happy to blend in the crowd, to do
my time as anonymously as possible. That usually worked pretty good.
At least, until someone recognized the symbol on my shoulder.

Why on earth did I get a hammer and sickle with the inscription Che
Lives! painted on my back? Because I'm a second generation Communist.
My mother was a Maoist in Atlanta during the sixties, a member of the
so-called New Left. (We never knew who my father was, because I was
conceived during an orgy. Or so I'm told. You know, free love, make
love not war, and all that.) So anyway, in my early teens, when I was
on fire for the workers revolt that all our family and friends were
certain lay just around the corner, I got the tattoo.

Of course, said revolt never materialized. Instead came disco music,
the war on drugs, and a long reign of Republican Presidents. There I
was, through it all, stuck with a Stalinist tattoo. I took a lot of
beatings on account of it during the Reagan era before the Soviet
Union collapsed, and for a while afterward when memories of the
specter of The Evil Empire were still fresh. But, over the years, as I
became less political, more addicted, and brown-faced Muslims wearing
turbans became the new enemy, I learned to deflect the attacks.

I would tell people the tattoo was ironic, a joke. Sometimes that
worked. But some old boys didn't think it was funny at all. What
finally worked best of all was the truth, when I admitted that I got
the tattoo as an expression of love for my mother. One thing no
Southern boy will do is talk bad about your mother.

“My Mama was a Communist. But she was a good Mama, and I loved her, so
I got the tattoo. You got a problem with that?”

“Sorry, man. I didn't know.”

Amazing, the allegiance of Southern manhood to the notion of mothering.

#

My bunkmates in Beauregard County were the usual mix. Jerry was black,
a joker and a coke head who stole a weed eater and hocked it for dope
money. Larry was a red-headed mill worker, a young tough in tennis
shoes, jeans, and tee shirts with one too many drunk driving charges.
Ralph was someone we all left alone: he didn't finish killing his wife
before burying her. Said he was in a Xanax blackout; claims he didn't
remember anything about it. He seemed normal enough around the
breakfast table, but, nevertheless, we all steered clear of him.

Sam, on the other hand, had committed no heinous crimes we knew of. He
was just run-of-the-mill crazy. An old man in overalls who talked to
himself, kept a mumbled monologue running about god-knew-what under
his breath all day long and half the night. Had a mute brother serving
time in the same jail who, by all appearances, was right in the head,
if not especially bright. It was Sam who got to me after a while.

Me and Sam slept in neighboring cells. Each cell contained six bunks,
filled to half capacity during the summer lull, a season when
three-hots-and-a-cot didn't have the same appeal as in wintertime. Not
a bad gig, crashed out in a half-filled jail, if you had to build some
time anyway. But every night around midnight, Sam took to walking over
to the wall of iron that separated us, hanging one wrinkled, hairy
knuckle off the bars like a monkey in the zoo, pointing at me with the
other hand, and moaning. Groaning and howling like a banshee at a
black mass. Of course, as usual, you couldn't understand anything he
said. We laughed at first. But after a while it got eerie. Irritating.
Downright maddening.

Jerry claimed Sam just had the hots for me. But Sam never did anything
sexual. He just pointed a crooked, gnarled finger at me and moaned.
For hours on end, sometimes clear into the dawn.

It was Larry who finally made the connection between Sam's shenanigans
and my tattoo. One afternoon I stepped out of the shower, stood for a
moment, then snatched my towel—not lingering for attention, but not
covering up so quick as to reveal my fear, either—when Sam started
moaning and pointing. When his dumb brother slapped my tattooed
shoulder, silently nodding his head and pointing, Larry crowed, “It's
the damn commie tattoo that ole Samuel don't like.” So that was it.
This was why I was being denied a decent night's sleep: a couple of
half-wit convicts hadn't heard that the Cold War was over.

I was lucky I didn't kill Sam. I tried to. Honest, I did. I'd had two
months of sleepless nights, of being stalked by a psycho, my nemesis
always on the far side of the bars. So when he started pointing and
moaning in the bullpen where the common shower was, with no iron
between us, I went for his throat. I found it and squeezed, harder and
harder as his ugly, puckered face went from pink to crimson to
scarlet, and that's the last I recall until Larry and Jerry pulled me
off him.

“My Mama! My Mama!” was all I could say for the longest time. My
buddies had me pinned to the floor, naked, dripping wet, hands locked
behind my back, and still I yelled, “You two retard sonuvabitches
better NEVER talk about MY Mama again!”

I mean, yeah, I was a Communist once. But I was always a Southern boy
first of all.

__________________________________________

Author biography: Randy Lowens is a native of Georgia who now lives
and writes in central Kentucky. He has been published in Fried
Chicken and Coffee, JMWW, and Unlikely Stories 2.0, and has stories
upcoming in Wrong Tree Review and A-Minor. He blogs at
oaknpine.blogspot.com.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Grossmama

Grossmama
By Jane-Ann Heitmueller


Family members tell me we are alike in many respects. This pleases me immensely, for as I rattle around in this 137 year old home place, where she tended to daily chores as the mistress, I often sense her presence with comfort and kinship.

For more than half a century Grossmama Eda rawboned, hardworking, talented German grandmother to my husband sedately settled into a world dedicated to the desires of her mate, Grosspapa Edd, yet found solitary solace in her miniscule environment. During the early nineteen hundreds she quietly and efficiently ran her household of three sons and a daughter.

Though one of few words, Grossmama’s genteel manner and kindness was offered to all who entered her home, whether it be the well dressed city business men who had traveled sixty miles north to purchase Grosspapa’s state renowned grape wine, the minister from her church, or a farm laborer who shared a hearty noontime meal of potato soup and freshly baked bread with the family at their kitchen table.

As a baker and gardener there were none more talented or generous than she. Each Saturday, her large farm kitchen was literally strewn with flour and saturated with delicious scents, as she went about her weekly baking ritual. Thick, moist prune coffee cakes, succulent cinnamon rolls, loaves of steaming wheat bread and crisp Snickerdoodle cookies all added to the wonderful aroma her talents and love created each week.

Because Grosspapa let his work horses graze freely in the yard, Grossmama had to fence off her profuse flower and vegetable gardens from the hungry, inquisitive animals. Any sprout in her able fingers was assured to be productive and lovely. She did indeed have a green thumb, and nothing pleased her more than to joyfully share her beauties with anyone who happened by the farm.

Grosspapa had often remarked that he needed two wives, one for the house and one for the fields. However, Grossmama somehow seemed to be quite capable of filling both roles. She tended to her household chores…washing, ironing, cleaning, cooking, as well as her duties planting and harvesting the crops of strawberries, corn, Irish and sweet potatoes with the rest of her family. After preparing breakfast and cleaning the kitchen, she would tie on her bonnet and head to the fields, working until she heard the noon whistle blow at the nearby sawmill, then hurry back to the house to prepare lunch. While the others settled in for an after lunch nap and the horses freely grazed in the yard, she tidied the kitchen and was ready to return to the fields for the afternoon. Grossmama ended her long, busy day by preparing a hearty supper and once again putting things in order before removing her apron and settling in for a night of rest.

Due to her quiet demeanor, simple mode of dress and lack of feminine frills one would never imagine that Grossmama was a woman of great pride. I was shocked to learn that fact many years after having married into the family.

While exploring the attic of this old farmhouse one dreary, rainy afternoon I was delighted to discover a large, beautifully framed photo of Grosspapa and Grossmama…their wedding portrait. She, standing almost a head taller than her groom, both erect and expressionless, looking straight into the camera, as her left hand gently rested on the wrist of his outstretched right arm.

Giddy with excitement, I securely gathered the portrait in my arms and dashed down the narrow, unlit stairway to learn more about this surprising treasure. It was in the explanation that I learned Grossmama certainly was a lady of great pride. My husband informed me that the photo was taken several months after their marriage, for in the days of the traveling photographer one often had to wait until he arrived in your community before having a photo taken. Following the wedding she had packed her dress away, and as one could easily view on the photo, the beautiful satin gown had become creased and wrinkled by the time the photograph was snapped, many months after their marriage ceremony. Grossmama was too disappointed and embarrassed to hang the picture in her parlor. She chose instead to quietly and carefully conceal it under the attic rafters for more than fifty years. I, on the other hand, have chosen to honor the life of this good woman by displaying it proudly, for over forty years, in the parlor of her beloved home, Mulberry Farm, where my husband, sons and I now reside.

The urgent ringing of the phone, mingled with booming thunder and crackling lightening awakened us in the wee hours that crisp November dawn of 1967. “She has passed… come quickly”, was the urgent message which propelled us from the warmth of our bed to face the menacing elements, as we dressed and rushed to the farm.

Respectively entering the subdued residence we were ushered into the dimly lit Victorian parlor, where we were met and seated with grieving family members. Reverend Schultz, a tall, reserved, skinny, bald fellow stood in the center of the room. His long, bony fingers clutched a well worn Bible to his chest. Suddenly, the parlor lights began to flicker, hail pelted the tin roof overhead and swirling winds whipped branches against the farmhouse windows. Above the fray the minister’s high pitched, nasal voice could be heard as he began earnestly praying for her spirit, while overhead the raging storm announced dear Grossmama’s entrance into the heavens.

Closing my eyes and bowing my head I mentally etched each facet of this occasion in my mind. How uncharacteristically appropriate. A boisterous, electrifying exit for this very subdued soul. Ah, the irony of this night! God rest her soul.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Waking up With Lady Liberty

Waking up With Lady Liberty
By Cappy Hall Rearick

At 4:30 a.m., my old legs take the slightly wet steps up to the sixteenth deck like a gazelle. Is it really me doing this? I might still be dreaming; it's what I’m normally doing at this hour.

But this is no ordinary day. It is the last one of a transatlantic crossing and much too short a visit to England, Ireland, Iceland and Newfound. I had hoped to spend lots of time in Ireland, birthplace of my great-grandfather, but the few hours on a bus tour around the city of Dublin was not nearly enough. I am hell bent on a return visit.

On this particular morning as I make my way up to the open deck and worm my way over to the starboard side of the ship, I find myself as wide awake as the city that never sleeps. I greet the new day watching the magnificent skyline kicking up her heels as high as a chorus line of Rockettes loaded to the hilt with sass and bling. "Just look at me," it seems to say, "am I the most exciting city in the world or what?"

I have been here before, but never have I sailed into town at 4:30 in the morning hanging onto the side of a ship and wondering how my great-grandfather might have felt when first he glimpsed, as I am doing, the grand Lady Liberty herself.

It’s too bad he didn’t hear the story of how the statue came to be constructed from toe to crown and how it was transported piece by piece from France to America. But I bet Great-grandpa wiped tears from his eyes as often as I am doing while standing at a similar railing and looking at The Lady for the first time as she shined the light of freedom on him.

What might he have been thinking? What would he have turned to his little brother and said, both of them having recently fled the potato famine in Ireland and both of them scared witless?

"Look at ‘er, lad, the ol' gurl hursef. Our noo mum. She'll tek’ caire of us naiw, she will."

Lil’ brother probably whimpered at the mention of their mother, a victim of poverty and neglect, buried only months before. Perhaps he moved a wee bit closer to big brother, the one who would take over once they set foot on American soil, the one who would find work however he could so that his charge would be fed, clothed and schooled proper in this, their new country.

My guess is they looked across the New York Harbor that day at the torch held high by The Lady and were warmed by her light just as I am today. They came with nothing, having left everything behind in the fallow potato fields of Ireland. In time, it would all be replaced with fulfilled dreams made each night as they grew into men and into good Americans. Like so many immigrants throughout our history, prayers were answered and hopes were rewarded.

Many Americans will never have the opportunity as I did to look upon The Statue of Liberty at daybreak. Seeing her at least once should be a requirement for every citizen of this great country of ours, but one of the things that makes us great is that we don’t require things like that of our people. It is no surprise that The Lady’s power too often gets lost amid the information overload we are fed and must sift through day after day.

Lest we forget what she stands for, the poet Emma Lazarus summed it up nicely in her work, and which is engraved at the base of the Statue of Liberty.

"Give me your tired, your poor,

Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,

The wretched refuse of your teeming shore,

Send these, the homeless, tempest-tossed to me,

I lift my lamp beside the golden door!"

The Lady lifted her lamp to a homeless, tempest-tossed Irish boy and his brother and when she did, our country was made stronger. He became a proud citizen and later proudly served his country. He would also have been proud of his descendants: A symphony musician; NASA Engineer; lawyer; Episcopal priest; psychologist; writer; teacher; good Americans all.

Nothing ever diminishes the spark of hope woven into the fiber of the Statue of Liberty and imparted to those who see her for the first time.

“Give me your tired, your poor…”

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Thursday, November 4, 2010

Spring Comes to Mississippi

Spring Comes to Mississippi

After a colder winter than usual, spring finally settled into the little town of Thornton, Mississippi. Even Jimmy Rob, who loved his red-plaid flannels, switched to T-shirts. Aside from changing his clothes, springtime meant something else to Jimmy Rob. He had promised himself a year ago that by spring, he'd have a better job and a girlfriend, maybe even a wife.

He lay in bed as the morning sun began streaming through the blinds, forming bars of light in the small room he had occupied since childhood. Squinting to see his alarm clock, which was designed to resemble a football, Jimmy Rob saw he still had an hour before the alarm would go off.

He had been working at Holcomb Nurseries for nearly ten months, loading and unloading trucks. Now, with the pansies in full bloom, they were getting in marigolds and other spring to early summer plants. Jimmy Rob hated marigolds. The smell got under his fingernails. Marigolds were worse than unloading forty-pound bags of cow manure with pinholes just big enough for shit dust to slip out into his hair. At least it washed off, unlike the marigold stench. Even after scrubbing with industrial soap, he could still smell the damn marigolds.

He knew people planted marigolds around their vegetable garden to repel insects and even deer. Jimmy Rob feared the marigolds were turning him into a babe repellent. After all, the smell had repelled Carolina, his latest true love. She thought it was insecticide, no matter what he said.

"That ain't no flower smell," she told him. "It's the stuff that's supposed to keep skeeters away but don't."

They finally split at the end of the summer. He blamed the marigolds.

There were a couple of girls during the fall and winter, when he unloaded racks of pansies and ornamental grasses and hostas, plants that had hardly any odor at all. But none of these relationships lasted much longer than the flower on a day lily.

He knew he didn't have much going for him, even without smelling like marigolds. Carolina once said that his stringy blond hair and beanpole body made him look like a mop with an Adam's apple and a dick.

Jimmy Rob rolled over in his bed onto his stomach. He thought if he humped the bed for a while he'd forget his troubles, but even that didn't work. He knew his parents were awake, and he didn't want them to hear the springs squeak.

At twenty-five, Jimmy Rob still lived with his parents, and his father never let him forget that he didn't pay rent. He hoped to save enough to move into his own place. But even with free rent, it was hard saving anything from a $7.25 an hour job. He had made good money as a welder out of high school, but the plant had "downsized," a fancy word for firing him. Now his choice seemed to be working as a short order cook at Bosco's Diner, and smelling like hamburger grease, or working at the nursery.

He had sold aluminum siding for a while, but it was mainly a commission job and he barely sold enough to pay for lunch at McDonald's. Besides, he hated trying to persuade people to buy something they didn't really need. Vinyl siding, another salesman had told him, was really much better.

He needed a job that would earn him some money, almost as much as he needed a girlfriend.

Most of all, he understood, he needed to get away from Thornton. The town's logo, he once told his high school buddies, should be a Dead End sign. The women in town that he'd grown up with were either married by now or moved away. He was too old to cruise the high school for the new crop, and the Thornton bar scene consisted of fat drunks bragging about their past exploits on the football field and the bedroom. That included the men and the women.

There was nothing for him in Thornton. His mama, of course, said they'd always have a place for him at home, but he even heard her tell her friend, Miss Ethel, that she'd like to turn his bedroom into a sewing room some day.

But where could he go? In high school, his guidance counselor had talked to him about going down to Jackson. He could attend the technical school there. "That's where opportunities are for a young man like yourself," he had said.

But when Jimmy Rob visited Jackson, he felt out of place. Too many folks and too many rules. Straight off, he got a ticket for parking too close to a bus stop. It was the only spot he could find, and his back fender was just touching the yellow line. Fifty damn dollars it cost him. And all he got to do was fill out an application for enrollment. No one contacted him, and that satisfied him just fine. Jackson wasn't for him.

He'd been up to Memphis a couple times, but he couldn't imagine living there. The town was full of folks wearing suits and ties. To Jimmy Rob, it looked like everyone was headed to a funeral, all dressed up and trying to be on time.

He liked Yazoo City well enough. An old high school buddy of his had moved there and Jimmy Rob visited him a few times. But Louis went off to the army and the last time he heard from him, Louis was heading for Iraq.

At one time, he thought he, too, should join the army and see the world. But he got a good job after high school and he just never got around to signing up. Besides, that was before the fighting in Iraq. Now even his old man, who had been in Vietnam, says only a damn fool would volunteer for that nonsense. "And Afghanistan ain't a whole sight better."

He and Louis used to talk of hopping into Louis's Chevy and driving until they ran out of gas and money. They'd pull into some town they never heard of and get work. That's how Louis ended up in Yazoo City. Jimmy Rob was supposed to go with him, but he chickened out at the last minute. After all, he had a job at the metal fabricating plant and couldn't just leave. His boss depended upon him.

That was before the downsizing.

But when he thought of just hopping into his own car and finding work in a new town, his heart thumped like it had decided to stop backing up his body and go solo.

He knew what the feeling meant. He had felt it before. It meant he was afraid. A damn coward is what he was. He slapped at his pillow with his open hand and kicked his mattress. He was a coward and dumb. A dumb, damn coward. And ugly, too. A dumb and ugly damn coward!

His life wasn't supposed to be this way. When he learned welding at the vocational high school, and got hired at Thornton Iron Works, he thought by now he'd be pulling in decent bucks and have himself a wife and kids.

Instead, he smelled like marigolds.

What he should do, he thought, was kill himself. Who would care? He knew where his father kept his hunting rifle or he could use the old shotgun in the closet by the front door. He even planned out how he'd write a note explaining everything

But he knew he'd never go through with it. Too much of a coward. And too dumb to even write a good note. He'd probably misspell everything. He could see Ms. Garner, his English teacher at Thornton High, red-penciling his suicide note.

Jimmy managed a smile. She'd probably send his suicide note back for a rewrite. Now that would be hell. Doomed to rewrite your own suicide note until you get it right.

Besides, his mother was just barely holding on and he didn't want to be the one to push her over the edge. His father said she was never the same after she had her miscarriages. That's when she started going to church and his father took to long hunting weekends alone.

"I'll take you with me when you get older," his father would say.

Jimmy Rob was still waiting.

Instead, his mother would drag him to church. She'd scrub him clean, make him wear a scratchy shirt and itchy pants. At first, he kind of liked it, despite the clothing. He and his mother would talk about God and sin and being saved.

But he never felt the Holy Spirit. When folks would start shouting and dancing and making weird sounds from deep in their throats, he'd laugh. At first, his mother would just give him dirty looks, like he had passed gas at the dinner table. But then she started jumping around and shouting. She even called him a sinner.

"Once your mama got saved," his father once told him, "she got mean." Still, he assured him, "She's a good woman. Just a little high-strung, is all. You and me, we got to watch out for her."

She started spending more time in church, trying to get Jimmy Rob to attend. But he and God weren't on speaking terms. He stopped going to church as soon as he got too big for his mother to drag. For a while, after high school, he considered going back and acting like he was saved just to meet girls, but decided that would be wrong. Just in case there was a God, he thought it wise not to anger Him.

Jimmy Rob stared at the clock on the little nightstand beside his bed. It was almost time to wake up, start another day at the nursery. He remembered his original plan: this was going to be the day he'd quit. He'd do the right thing and give them two weeks notice. He would never just up and leave them when truckloads of plants were due, even if they were marigolds.

But with this economy, what if he couldn't find another job? And even if he did, would he like it any better than the one he already had? Should he just try to get used to the damn marigolds? After all, it was spring, and a lot of pretty girls in shorts would be coming into the nursery to buy flowers.

Just the other day, he tried talking to his father about his predicament. "Boy, you won't always be unloading trucks. Do your job and learn the business. Someday they'll have you buying the plants. Then you can save your money and buy your own nursery."

His father had always spoken of someday owning his own hardware store, but he still worked for Jackson Mott at Mott's Hardware.

Jimmy Rob tried going back to sleep, but the morning sun made the bars on the walls clearer.

The alarm rang and he slapped at it. He heard his father making coffee downstairs. What he really wanted to do was bury his head under the blanket and not come out. Instead, he unfolded himself from the bed he had slept in since he was a boy, stretched and scratched and flat-footed his way to the shower. With his hair dripping, he stepped into a clean pair of jeans and a fresh Holcomb Nursery T-shirt. Downstairs, his father had placed a box of Cheerios and a container of milk on the table with two bowls.

"Coffee?" his father asked.

"Thanks."

Jimmy Rob and his father sipped the black coffee, making identical "ahhh" sounds with every taste.

They sat in silence. Finally his father spoke. "Trouble with spring is the grass starts to growing. You need to mow it after work today."

"Sure thing," Jimmy Rob said. "Right after work."

In his mind, he was hitching a ride out west where he'd start a new life.

"They got some nice flowers at the nursery, marigolds and stuff, Jimmy said, after a long pause. "You want me to plant some in the flower bed?"

"Sure thing," his father said.

###

Bio:

Wayne Scheer has locked himself in a room with his computer and turtle since his retirement. (Wayne's, not the turtle's.) To keep from going back to work, he's published

hundreds of short stories, essays and poems, including, Revealing Moments, a collection of twenty-four flash stories, available at http://www.pearnoir.com/thumbscrews.htm. He's been nominated for four Pushcart Prizes and a Best of the Net. Wayne lives in Atlanta with his wife, and can be contacted at wvscheer@aol.com.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Serpent of the Nile


Serpent of the Nile
Ross Howell, Jr.


His secret, Ruby Vaughan’s father always told her, was time. Sweet corn should be picked as close to when it was going to be eaten as possible. Customers couldn’t tell you the difference, but they could taste it. Rather than picking the evening before, he would roust her at three o’clock on a Saturday morning to load the pickup and make the trip to Market Square in Roanoke.

Ruby would put on a dress, since the work was not hard, wearing her mud shoes and carrying her slippers to the truck, with a smock to protect her dress. She liked it best when there was just a sliver of moon, stars bright and hanging low over the mountains, because in the darkness she could use her touch to recognize the ripe ears, feeling the firm kernels under the husk, and the odor of the corn as she pulled the ear away from the stalk was delicious. It was like swimming in a stream at dusk, smooth stones under her feet in the darkness, and the thrilling splash of some creature dropping into the water at stream’s edge.

The birds were silent this time of morning, and she would listen to the rustle of cornstalks as her father moved along the rows, the husks shrieking as he pulled them away from the stalks. Then from some hollow, she would hear the first rooster, and then the rise of birdsong at the edge of the field. Her smock would be damp with dew by now. Sunrise would gild the tassels of corn, and the woods beyond the field swam in violet light. Sometimes she would think of the photograph of her mother on her bedroom bureau. Her mother’s eyes were large and beautiful, and her dark hair was bound in a net that looked like silver. She thought of the elegant shape of the lips in the photograph, what they might say to her.

Sometimes she would ask her father what her mother was like.

“Well,” he would say, “I think the Lord sometimes gives us an angel here on earth, so we can know what goodness is. Then He has to take her back. That was your mother.”

Gone at her birth. Reclaimed by the angel choir. She herself had grown tall on long legs, her breasts often tender from growth. When she had her first period she ran screaming to her father that she was dying, she was bleeding to death, and he had gotten an old woman who lived on a farm nearby to explain it to her.

What little she knew made her even more curious. She studied the animals in the fields, the rude, solemn way they pursued one another. And she loved being with the boys in the barn. If the hay was a little damp when it was baled, it would heat, so that the air was warm and heavy and moist, ripe with the smell of clover and timothy grass. The boys, like all young animals, had a bright, clean smell. She loved to touch them, their hearts fluttering beneath their ribs, under her hands. They were excitable, and sudden. They seemed to live their lives right under the skin, the way the animals did.

When she was in the grip of one of her headaches, big as she was, her father would let her sit in his lap. The pain was ferocious, throbbing, and light hurt her eyes. She would crawl into his lap, legs dangling to the floor until she folded them against his stomach, and he would gently touch her forehead, her eyebrows, her temples, his thick hands rough as tree bark. Sometimes she would clutch his wrist with both hands, pressing his big hand against her cheek, so that it felt as though her cheek were cradled in the knot hole of a big tree, and she could feel the throb of his pulse under her fingertips. She would drift off to sleep, still holding him.

On Market Saturday if they started early enough, the lights of Roanoke would be glimmering as they drove in the pickup over the brow of Bent Mountain. It was a wondrous sight, jewels scattered in the valley, and she felt as though she were overlooking a faraway kingdom. Here, the old radio in the truck could pick up the stations clearly. Her father tuned to the station that had the livestock and grain prices, with old-time fiddle and Bluegrass music. The newsman was talking about a battle in a place called the Ia Trang Valley.

Then the music came on and her father sang tenor along with the tune.

She walked through the corn leading down to the river,
Her hair shone like gold in the hot morning sun.
She took all the love that a poor boy could give her,
And left me to die like a fox on the run.

She dozed off to the sound of the radio and her father’s singing. When she woke, the truck was parked in a stall. She heard the murmur of voices and looked out the back window. Her father was wrapping a large parcel for a couple standing next to the tailgate.

“That’s right, ma’am, boil it for three minutes and not a minute more,” her father said.

Ruby stretched, opened the door of the truck, and walked over to stand alongside her father. She saw that two women who had just come out the door of the coffee house across Market Square were looking at her. Her father saw them, too. He took the bills out of the cigar box on the folding table by the tailgate of the pickup and stuck them in the bib pocket of his overalls. Then he buttoned the pocket.

“Lord to God, Darnelle, look at that angel,” the woman with brunette hair said. Her hair was cut in bangs that hid her eyebrows and draped over her shoulders nearly to her waist. Her eye makeup was thick and a little smudged. She was wearing a white blouse with polka dots the color of oranges that tied in the front so that her midriff showed and a tight skirt that matched the polka dots came midway down her thighs. The skirt had a white vinyl belt that was two inches wide with a round buckle and her white vinyl platform boots were tied with big laces right under her knee caps. Ruby thought it would be easy to mistake her for Cher Bono. She staggered when she started down the steps and the woman with blond hair helped steady her but her ankle turned on the second step and one of the platform heels went flying.

“Ain’t that a sack of shucks,” she said, and started to giggle. “Goddamn cheap shoes.”

“Phyllis, a child in diapers is less trouble to look after.” The blond woman picked up the broken heel and handed it to the woman with dark hair.

“Like you would know, Darnelle. Like you have ever been anywhere near a baby’s ass.”

“I reckon I raised my brothers and sisters. I reckon I did.” The woman named Darnelle had blond hair that was nearly white. It was teased off her head and made a sweep away from her left cheek, like Dolly Parton on the Porter Waggoner Show. Her lips were red as crab apples and her breasts were enormous, spilling over the front of a bodice that was tied with black string at the waist. She wore a jean skirt, shorter even than the one the woman named Phyllis was wearing, and the skin of her thighs was white and smooth as powder.

The two women made their way across Market Square, the thin, dark-haired woman hobbling on the broken heel, the heavier, blond-haired woman jiggling in her tight clothing. Ruby could smell their perfume before they were half way across the square.

“Look at that figure,” the dark-haired woman said.

“A rose just budding,” the blond-haired woman said.

“Don’t get your bib in a wrinkle, Homer,” the dark-haired woman said. “We won’t steal anything. What’s this precious angel’s name?”

“Ruby,” she said.

“Cleopatra’s favorite jewel,” the woman said.

“Cleopatra like Elizabeth Taylor?” Ruby said.

“Yes, angel, like Elizabeth Taylor. Queen of Egypt,” she said. “Serpent of the Nile. Ruler of dominions and realms. The most powerful woman in the world.”

“My name’s not Homer,” her father said. The dark-haired woman looked at him like a fly she’d like to swat.

“What is your name, then?” the woman said.

“It’s Gabriel,” he said.

The woman sucked air through her teeth.

“Lord to God, Darnelle, will wonders never cease,” she said. “We got an angel and archangel right here on the Market selling sweet corn out the bed of a pickup.”

“Now, Phyllis,” Darnelle said.

“Reckon I could blow on that horn of yours, Gabriel? I’ll play you a tune you won’t forget.”

“Phyllis,” Darnelle said.

“I’m not listening to that talk,” her father said. He looked up the street, where a policeman was talking to a man selling woven baskets. Phyllis followed his eyes.

“Going to call Frank, are you? Oh, he’ll make us move on, for sure. But I expect he’ll be right interested in the busted tail light and baldy tire on this rattle trap of yours. I’d just bet he’ll think the best thing to do is impound it until you get her fixed, especially if I tell him his freebie’s cut off if he don’t. Hell, let’s get him over here right now.” Her father’s face flushed red.

“My Daddy didn’t mean anything,” Ruby said. “He wouldn’t say anything to hurt anybody.”

“Listen to this angel, Darnelle. Even her voice is beautiful.”

“Phyllis, what on earth is wrong with you today?” Darnelle said.

“What’s wrong with me? On top of a goddamn hangover I got hot flashes like old Satan farting on the Fourth of July.”

“I told you you never should have had that operation.”

“Well, I reckon not, Darnelle, not unless I wanted to goddamn nearly bleed to death every twenty-eight days.”

“At least I’m still a woman,” Darnelle said.

“Fertile as a rabbit,” Phyllis said.

“I have feelings. I’m not hard like you.”

“That may be. But you’ve got as much mileage on that box as a Goodyear retread factory.”

A woman walking toward the truck gasped and put her kerchief to her mouth. She scurried toward another stand.

“What’s wrong with you, you old cow?” Phyllis said. “Catch your tit in a briar?”

“Don’t you be driving off my customers,” Gabriel said.

“I’ve known love,” Darnelle said. “Abiding love.”

“Lord to God, Darnelle, don’t start on that again,” Phyllis said.

“He was the purest, most beautiful man I’ve ever known,” Darnelle said. “In that uniform he looked like a god.” She fingered a thin gold necklace that trailed down between her breasts. She lifted the chain that held a single large pearl. She showed it to Ruby.

“He sent me this as a token,” she said. “A native boy dove so deep in the Pacific to capture this pearl that his lungs exploded.”

“I cannot listen to this horse shit again, Darnelle,” Phyllis said.

“He sent it to me, ransomed with blood, set in gold, a token of his undying love, with a beautiful letter,” Darnelle said. “I have it framed in my apartment.” Tears brimmed up in her mascara. “Those little yellow bastards shot him all to pieces,” she said. She closed her palm slowly over the pearl.

Phyllis tapped the toe of the boot that had lost the heel.

“He was some college trick you picked up at the bus station and we stayed drunk two days before he shipped off. He was a stud, though, I’ll grant you that.”

“Sex had nothing to do with it,” Darnelle said.

“Well excuse the hell out of me, Darnelle, but when he wasn’t swigging from a bottle he was loading lumber with you, the way I remember.”

“Now you two hold on,” Gabriel said.

“He was the love of a lifetime,” Darnelle said. “Something you could never understand.”

“That boy didn’t love you, Darnelle,” Phyllis said.

“He loved me with abandon,” Darnelle said.
“No one loves us,” Phyllis said.

“I love. I am a woman. Not a witch like you,” Darnelle said. Her face was twisted like a rag.

Phyllis looked down at the pavement and turned her boots on the outsides of her feet.

“She’s not a witch,” Ruby said. “She’s pretty. She could be a star on television.”
Phyllis raised her eyes.

“I told you she was an angel, Darnelle.”

“I’m not,” Ruby said.

Darnelle snatched up Phyllis like a doll and hugged her.

“I didn’t mean it, Phyllis,” Darnelle said.

“You fat whore pig,” Phyllis said, “stop blubbering on me.”

“I didn’t mean it, Phyllis,” Darnelle said.

“I know that,” Phyllis said. “You’re too goddamn simple to mean anything.”

“You’re my one true friend. Please forgive me.”

“Darnelle, if you don’t let me go I am going to die of the hot flash.”

Darnelle held Phyllis tightly for a moment longer, then released her. She pulled a tissue from her purse and began to dab at the mascara on her face.

“Everything all right here, ladies?” the policeman said. “Buying some sweet corn?” The commotion had drawn him down the sidewalk.

“We are, Frank,” Phyllis said. “We were just speaking with this gentleman and his beautiful child. I’ll take six ears, Gabriel.”

“Looks like you busted up your boot, Phyllis. Been drinking?”

“Lord to God, I don’t know how you can say that to me, Frank Douthat,” she said.

Gabriel selected six ears and started to wrap them in newspaper.

“Give me that big one,” Phyllis said, pointing. “I got a real appetite today.” She rolled her eyes at the policeman.

Gabriel picked up the ear and placed it with the others and wrapped them. Phyllis handed him a five-dollar bill.

“Keep the change,” she said. “For your trouble.”

“I’ll have six ears, too,” Darnelle said to Ruby. Ruby selected the ears, wrapped them in paper, and handed them to Darnelle. Darnelle pressed a bill into Ruby’s hand.

“You keep this,” she said. Ruby felt a lump inside the bill, but said nothing. She watched the two women walk up the sidewalk. Phyllis leaned against the big blond woman Darnelle as she hobbled along. When the two of them reached Shenandoah Avenue, they dumped the parcels in the city trash can.

On the journey up Bent Mountain Ruby rode in silence in the pickup, holding the bauble in the folds of her skirt. She could see the stamped letters on the back of the setting, Made in Taiwan. She remembered the smell of the women’s perfume.

That evening, after they had milked the cows and eaten supper and she had washed the dishes, they sat out on the porch, watching fireflies in the marsh. Her father seemed uneasy in his chair.

“The truth is, Ruby, your Momma ain’t dead. I mean, she may not be dead. She just up and left.”

“I reckon somehow I knew that, Daddy.”

“You knew that?”

“She just seemed like too good a woman.”

“An angel on earth. She just got wayward.”

“I know, Daddy. That must have hurt you.”

“When you was born she told me she had never seen anything as beautiful and never would again.”

She reached out in the darkness and took his hand.

“Thank you, Daddy. You go to sleep now.”
“All right, child.”

As her father rose to go upstairs, Ruby touched the pearl that lay against her breast under her dress.

“Is it true about Cleopatra, Daddy? That she ruled dominions and realms?”

“I wouldn’t give them women much thought, Ruby.”

“But is it true?”

“Yes, child, I reckon it’s true.”

“Good night, Daddy.”

“Good night, child.”

Ruby listened to her father’s tread as he went up the steps. She thought about the battleships and aircraft carriers she had seen on television in the port of Norfolk, the young men in their crisp uniforms. She could feel her heart beating. In the photograph, her mother’s hair was bound in a net that looked like silver. A shadow moved in the darkness of the trees beyond the marsh. She could barely make out the screech owl alighting on a branch. A firefly skimmed close. She folded her hands on her lap in its cold green light. A scent of honeysuckle was in the air, and she breathed deeply. She would not leave this evening.

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Ross Howell lives in Greensboro, NC, with his wife, Mary Leigh, and diva, English cocker spaniel Pinot. He’s working on a novel based on the life of his grandfather and a collection of short stories. His most recent publication is “The War Song of Thomas Ingles.”